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| Thu, 11-11-2004 - 5:46pm |
After my venting here Monday night, I went to see my pdoc on Tuesday, ready to tell him I needed to take a leave of absence from my job if we couldn't get the hypomanic agitation under control (and I don't want to leave my job, although I admit that tonight I am dreading going in tomorrow - I only work PT - M-W-F). So he got rid of the Remeron and put me on a small dose of Risperdal as needed to get me through the week and then see what happens (he still plans to increase the Lamictal and start weaning the other antidepressants). Yesterday was the BEST day I've had in ages! I was still hypomanic, but the "happy productive hypomanic" that others described but I never had. Then today wasn't so good. But I did get a little more caught up with my paperwork. And I'm starting to accept the fact that I don't know when or if I will be able to function like I used to. Sigh. I thought that the year my SO died 4 years ago was the most challenging, but this one is getting up there!
peace and love,
just_a_big_kid
Sue

Hugs,
Keli
Thanks Keli -
I so relate to your description of the cycling back and forth from depression to the "not so fun" hypomania. Today I'm not sure where I'm at, other than overly sensitive and emotional. I believe that things will eventually get better (or I wouldn't still be here!) but that's not helping me now. It's really hard to hold it together at work and with friends (all of whom happen to be AA's and most don't get the mood disorder). I just want to go away and hide for a month (preferably a sunny island - LOL) or so until this evens out, then come back to my life. Which I know isn't the answer, since this cycling may continue for awhile, I guess I have to learn how to live with it - which I don't yet.
peace and love,
just_a_big_kid
Sue
peace and love,
just_a_big_kid