What is wrong with me?
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|Tue, 09-21-2010 - 7:38pm|
I have wanted to be a mom, a stay-at-home-mom, for 4 years. We endured years of miscarriages, fertility treatments, you name it. Suffering beyond belief. Then, almost 6 months ago, we adopted our beautiful baby girl. She is perfect in every way, healthy and developing normally.
I should be happy, right? I am sometimes... but, not very often. I'm miserable. She whines, fusses CONSTANTLY! I feel like such a failure. My house is a mess, I can't lose weight, UGH. I thought I would LOVE being home. Prior to becoming a mom, I was in complete bliss when I had days at home. I loved putting around, cooking, cleaning, etc... Now, I hardly ever get to do any of the things I love. I can't get a moment to myself without hearing "Waaaaaahhhh."
My DH is a huge help, but only when I ask. And, I hate to ask too often, he works very hard at his job all day. None of my friends/family seem to understand. I honestly think they see me as crazy! That I finally got the one thing I wanted more than anything, and I'm not enjoying it. Most days I count the hours until bedtime. (fortunately she's a great sleeper).
Am I alone? Am I crazy? Will it get better as she gets older?