whats happening with me

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Registered: 10-02-2003
whats happening with me
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Fri, 11-19-2004 - 4:43pm

Things are calming down a little now that the funeral with my bf's dad is over. I am still having a hard time believing he is gone...I mean I know he is but I just wish I could have had him aroung longer to get even closer then what we already did. I lost my dad at the age of 17 which was real hard for me to deal with as a young girl. I never thought I would meet someone who would become like a dad to me but this man...my bf's dad did become like a dad to me and I know I meant the world to him. He bragged to many people about me, which I found out at the funeral by the people he talked to about me. That made me feel good but it made me sad too because he is no longer here.

The services were very nice and respectful. The fire department gave a service and had the fire trucks at the funeral. The ladder truck from the fire house he was part of had their ladder truck at the cemetary with the ladder up and tilted so we could drive under it on our way into the cemetary. The ladder truck also had a flag they hung from it. It was so beautiful. My FFIL (future father in law) also was in the Marines and the flag that was drapped over his casket was folded up and presented to my bf's brother and that was touching. This man achieved alot in his life. He was a Marine, a firefighter and a chief engineer. He had alot of friends. I am glad I got to know him. We have been trying to think of the good times and the laughs we all shared. We are glad he is no longer suffering but that doesn't make us miss him any less. It is hard to be in his home and him not be there. I do miss him.

I want to thank everyone for your support and prayers. That has meant alot to me. I was dealing with a bad depressive episode for a few weeks and when this happened it made it all worse but I am coming up from this a little. It will take time. I hope not too much time. I have been sick of being depressed. The other thing is a year ago from November 18th my brother died. We buried my bf's dad on the same day my brother died a year ago. I have been having a hard time dealing with missing my brother too. It is so much at once. I don't know what I am going to feel one minute to the next but since I was feeling like I could post a few lines I wanted to do that. Thanks again for your support!

Tina~

 
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Registered: 09-01-2004
Sun, 11-21-2004 - 1:10pm

(((((Tina))))),


Sweetie, when I heard from Keli about your bf father's death, I knew it would it hit you hard, but didn't realize the connection between the timing of your brother's death.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 11-22-2004 - 9:09am

Tina...

I hope you're okay. I'm worried about you. Email me if you're up to it at work.

You have my utmost support and never ending friendship.

Love,

Keli