need some support (triggers)

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Registered: 10-04-2004
need some support (triggers)
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Mon, 11-22-2004 - 6:40am

i am just so tired of this. my life on the outside is great (i.e. job, home,

peace and love,

just_a_big_kid

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Mon, 11-22-2004 - 7:35am

Sue,


I know you know this, but sometimes we all need reminding--the black hole of BP can rob us any joy--even if we're millionaires, great health (other than the BP) and a "perfect" and loving family.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 11-22-2004 - 8:55am

Hey Sue...HAVE I SOOOOO BEEN THERE!!! Ugh, I know how horrible it feels...I wish there was something magical I could say to make it better for you RIGHT NOW! But, as you know and said in your post, it takes time and most importantly patience.

What antidepressants are you weaning off of? They make you feel really miserable when you're coming off of them too, so that could be part of it. If the increase in Lamictal doesn't help soon, be sure to tell your pdoc, you may need something else.

I'm fighting depression myself...just a little, but depression is depression. It plain sucks no matter what. Hang in there and talk to us...Talking it out, yelling, screaming it out helps so much. I'm here for you...I promise!

Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 10-04-2004
Mon, 11-22-2004 - 6:35pm

Thanks Marci and Keli for your quick responses and support.


Marci, I like your mantra!


Keli, right now I'm on Celexa and Wellbutrin and making no changes, but i was also on Remeron and have weaned off of it, so we were sort of expecting this - just not so bad. Luckily (and expensively!) I see my pdoc weekly because he's my therapist also. So we discuss the meds at least briefly on a weekly basis. I have a lot to talk to him about tomorrow.


Today was a little better, but I can always hold things together at work. Now I'm off for a week so we'll see how it goes. I also developed a very itchy rash today, and I'm getting paranoid again that it is the dreaded "Lamictal rash". I had finally quit worrying about it now that I'm up to 300 mg. But - Im powerless over all of this, so if it is, it is.


UGH! I want to feel better!!!

peace and love,


just_a_big_kid


Sue

peace and love,

just_a_big_kid

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Mon, 11-22-2004 - 9:55pm

Hi Sue,

When I read your post I felt your pain. I have been in a bad depression for over a month now. It has been at times unbearable. Then I had my future father in law die and the 1 year anniversary of my brothers death just past on November 18th the day we buried my bf's dad. I know how much you hate feeling the way you do because I feel the same way. It is a horrible feeling to not have control over your emotions. I know if we did we wouldn't be feeling this bad.

I am glad you are reaching out to people...your friends and to us here on the board. It helps to vent and get out what we are feeling. I can tell you this will pass and better days are ahead. You will have days that are bad and days that are good. Enjoy those good days! I wish I could make it all better for you...for all of us right now but I don't have that power...I wish I did. Sorry it took me awhile to post to you but I have been in my own depressed state and funk. I love trying to help people and when I feel this bad and fall short in posting to people I feel bad. Please know my thoughts are with you and my prayers. Please let us all know how your appointment went with your pdoc/tdoc. Hang in there girl...we are all here for you.

Tina~