I am so darn depressed:(
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| Mon, 11-22-2004 - 10:44pm |
Why can't it go away. I am sitting here tonight tired and feeling so depressed. I want to go to sleep and yet i can't stop my mind from thinking about all the things that I am depressed about. I haven't been so depressed for this long in a long long time and now it is going on 6 weeks. I go to my pdoc Wednesday. Should I ask him to change my AD because the one I am on right now is Wellbutrin and I am taking 450mgs of that which is as high as the dose can go. I am afraid to change meds in one way because what if I do and then I feel worse then I do now. How do I get through this??? I am on Lamictal 200mgs, Risperdal 2mgs, and the Wellbutrin and I take ativan for anxiety. It used to work for me...the Wellbutrin that is, but now I don't think it is helping anymore. I am afraid and I don't want to feel any worse then I do already. I don't want to go in the hospital. I am trying to get through this and I know now that I have had a death of someone very close to me that isn't helping. Also, the 1st yr anniversary of my brothers death doesn't help as well. Is this something I am just going to have to suffer through for a long time to come? I just needed to vent about how bad I feel thanks for reading... God I HATE this!!!! I am trying to be supportive to my bf through all his pain as well but I can't handle too much of this right now. I feel bad he is going through such a rough time of it also.
Tina~
Tina~

Hi Tina.-
I really identify with what you are going through - from the lack of improvement on meds (I'm up to 300 mg of Lamictal and I'm still cycling and VERY depressed, to
peace and love,
just_a_big_kid
Tina,
I am so sorry if I triggered you yesterday in my email...you were the one who needed support and I ended up complaining most of the time. Please forgive me.
You need different meds, baby...the Wellbutrin should have you up and about and feeling better, ESPECIALLY at 450 mgs...and at that high of a dose, its probably causing you a lot more anxiety than you're really having on your own. Talk to your pdoc tomorrow and tell him you aren't taking it anymore and need something different.
You have been THIS depressed for a long time now. And it can't go on like this anymore.
If your pdoc doesn't make a change, with everything you're going through and have just been through, you KNOW you're going to end up in the hospital...and you know that I think that may not be such a bad idea...but talk to your pdoc first and see if he'll give you something different for the depression.
Again, I am really sorry for my email yesterday being about me...my stupid problems are nothing compared to what you're going through and I was insensitive to that.
I love you girl. Email me if you're up to it.
Keli