Do you feel like you have been cheated?

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Registered: 05-04-2003
Do you feel like you have been cheated?
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Wed, 12-15-2004 - 10:00am

Usually after a manic episode, where I can do everything, and I fall into a depression, I feel like my life has been cheated. I know there are certain things I can't do, lest it send me into a mania then depression, but I hate it and feel so limited. I was supposed to be the head of industry, travel the world and write the great american novel. Now I am lucky if I can keep a part time job. Yuck, I guess we all feel sorry for ourselves.

Kristin

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 12-15-2004 - 10:37am

I feel that way right now...I've been pretty manic the last few weeks, and now I've crashed into a depression and I HATE IT! I can't stand it and I get so angry about it...it sucks...I was so happy, and doing so much and feeling so good and now I feel lost again...I hate my life, my job, my everything...and I know its just the depression making me feel this way...I've been here too many times to NOT know this...but it never helps to know...I feel so terrible...I went home last night, laid on my couch and stayed there all night...I did get up and forced myself to come to work this morning, but I am having a really hard time being here...nobody understands...I'm trying really hard to fight it, but today its just not working...I want to disappear today...and I can't miss work...I feel fat from the weight I've gained on meds...and my own inactivity...just last week I felt sooooooo good...got sooooo much work done...had a lot of fun...and now, just nothingness...ugh. I'm trying to figure out what the trigger was, that put me into this depression, but I guess there doesn't have to be one...just life as someone with BP.

Sorry I'm not more supportive today...

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Fri, 12-17-2004 - 12:07am

Oh yeah!