Beth...Canyouhearmenow...

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Beth...Canyouhearmenow...
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Mon, 12-20-2004 - 2:02pm

Beth,

How's it going? I haven't been over to the SI board in a couple days, and was hoping you were lurking here. How are you? You've been on my mind and I hope you're getting some relief. Let me know!

Love and Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 11-19-2004
Mon, 12-20-2004 - 5:47pm

Hi Keli,

I'm lurking around both boards right now. And as usual struggling with both problems.
If you check out my rant on the SI board, it'll bring you up to speed. I'm having major anxiety, and my boyfriend and xh are making things unbearable. I gave my notice at work today, even though I don't have a job lined up yet. I just need time off to stare at the ceiling and get rid of this anxiety and depression.

Now that xh is back in the picture - he made his confessional and apologies for what he did - I keep getting carried away with ideas of us getting back together. Holy crap, not what I need right now. But I miss my old life sooooo much. And my boyfriend is being a very not-understanding selfish jerk. I don't even want to see him again. I just want my DVD player back ;)

Ativan may have saved my life this week. Don't know what i would have done without my tdoc taking care of me like she did.

You'll make an awesome CL - I was so happy to read about it! And that means we'll probably see you more around here too, which is great, because I love reading your posts.

Hugs,
Beth

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 12-21-2004 - 9:55am

Beth,

So good to hear from you, girlfriend! Sorry you're still struggling though...how safe are you right now? I'm safe...but its because of Ativan too!!! LOL, but not funny...

I had a rough Sunday...but made it through and I'm not in an episode or anything...I know what happened to me was "reactive" and not because of anything related to my BP. Guess I really am doing a lot better.

I know how it feels doing the bf/xh thing...btdt over and over...try to take it slow and take care of you first. My biggest mistakes have been from going waaaaaaaaay too fast (like my brain moves any slower than that!!!) and not taking care of ME first.

Keep me posted on how you're doing and if you need to talk, I'm here.

Love and Hugs,

Keli