I feel your pain. Today xdh took my oldest skiing, so I won't have him on my day to have him. My family is about to find out that xdh and I are no longer together. In general being with my family on the holiday sucks.....too much pressure. I have this nagging cold and I'm going through the emotions of realizing my marriage has ended...whether I was totally ready for it or not....tis the season, eh?
Tomorrow I'll be totally alone for the day after morning gifts with my kids. I dunno how I'm going to handle it. Or even what I'm going to do. I'm at a point where when I sit still, my mind gets me so far in the dumps that I can't stand myself. So I've been pushing the depression away with being busy with friends. But tomorrow those friends will be with family......I wish I could be with my kids all day and lounge on the couch, but xdh deserves to have them too and my family celebrates tonite sooooo....whats a girl gonna do?
I'll think of you and send you extra special birthday and yule wishes, okay?
Sue, Thank you so much for the very loving gift. It helps allot. Love, Jamie
Marci, Happy Birthday and I'm sorry you're hurting. Hope your New Year is brighter. Love, Jamie
Teri, I remember my first Christmas without my kids. It took me years to finally give myself permission to mourn. Enjoy the time you have with them.(that sounds trite - it's not meant to be.) I have to do something, just for me, everyday, to help me through the holidays. It can be as simple as a bubble bath...Just something to remind me I'm not alone...I have me. Take Care. Love, Jamie
OOps forgot to tell you about my Christmas. I'll blame it on the meds. LOL. We will have a small dinner tonight and open our presents...I'm so excited. Tomorrow we will have a big Christmas dinner. There's just two of us, but why not. I'm on a special diet because of another problem so I've written a recipe for Pumpkin Pie that I can eat...I can't wait.
I'm usually down this time of year. Not this year. I feel fine. Not high or low...just fine. I wish I could bottle it and pass it on to anybody that's suffering.
Everyone, please, know I love you and wish you a happy and healthy holiday.
Sue,
Thanks for this--I was doing SO good, then DD didn't even bother to tell me Happy Birthday, little alone bother to buy me a gift or even a card.
Marci~
I feel your pain. Today xdh took my oldest skiing, so I won't have him on my day to have him. My family is about to find out that xdh and I are no longer together. In general being with my family on the holiday sucks.....too much pressure. I have this nagging cold and I'm going through the emotions of realizing my marriage has ended...whether I was totally ready for it or not....tis the season, eh?
Tomorrow I'll be totally alone for the day after morning gifts with my kids. I dunno how I'm going to handle it. Or even what I'm going to do. I'm at a point where when I sit still, my mind gets me so far in the dumps that I can't stand myself. So I've been pushing the depression away with being busy with friends. But tomorrow those friends will be with family......I wish I could be with my kids all day and lounge on the couch, but xdh deserves to have them too and my family celebrates tonite sooooo....whats a girl gonna do?
I'll think of you and send you extra special birthday and yule wishes, okay?
Love you,
~Teri~
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Sue, Thank you so much for the very loving gift. It helps allot. Love, Jamie
Marci, Happy Birthday and I'm sorry you're hurting. Hope your New Year is brighter. Love, Jamie
Teri, I remember my first Christmas without my kids. It took me years to finally give myself permission to mourn. Enjoy the time you have with them.(that sounds trite - it's not meant to be.) I have to do something, just for me, everyday, to help me through the holidays. It can be as simple as a bubble bath...Just something to remind me I'm not alone...I have me. Take Care. Love, Jamie
Love,
OOps forgot to tell you about my Christmas. I'll blame it on the meds. LOL. We will have a small dinner tonight and open our presents...I'm so excited. Tomorrow we will have a big Christmas dinner. There's just two of us, but why not. I'm on a special diet because of another problem so I've written a recipe for Pumpkin Pie that I can eat...I can't wait.
I'm usually down this time of year. Not this year. I feel fine. Not high or low...just fine. I wish I could bottle it and pass it on to anybody that's suffering.
Everyone, please, know I love you and wish you a happy and healthy holiday.
Love,
Jamie
Love,
peace and love,
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Sue
peace and love,
just_a_big_kid