Manic? Now what?
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| Tue, 12-28-2004 - 5:03am |
Forgot to put it but this may be a TRIGGER
I fear that I am becoming manic but that doesn't usually happen so soon, the depression is usually much longer. My meds were just upped. I think that's the problem. Wellbutrin no mood stabilizer. Haven't seen a pdoc yet. Still haven't called the clinic first see tdoc then if he thinks so he'll send me to the pdoc but I know I am. What do I do? Stop taking as much of the AD? How is it different from a regular manic cycle? I missed the good part straight into the scrambled deal my mind is racing I can't keep up with it. Sorry if you can't keep up with me. My mind is racing. I can't think straight. I definately think it's the meds. I don't know what to expect. What to do. Sorry. ARGH so frustrating.
Schitz amanda
Edited 12/28/2004 5:12 am ET ET by schitz


Hi Amanda,
Being manic can be scary but you will be ok. Please call the clinic immediately. You need a mood stabilizer and you need to see a pdoc. Let them know you are not stable and need help now. Hang in there and it will be ok. If you feel you are not ok and are scared you can go to your nearest emergency room for help...they will help you. The main thing here is to be safe so if you feel you need to go to the ER then please go. If the clinic won't help you then you may just have to go to the ER for help. Please take care of yourself and let us know how you are doing ok.
Tina~
Hurumph, I know we are prone to different spectrums of moods, but can't they even have some consitancy. It seems like just when you have your "illness" figured out, it changes. My last mania was short and strong (lots of money, got a second job, etc) and ended when my scrambled mind got out of control then plunged me into a depression. I can't figure these things out... but if your Wellbutrin has been upped, that can definetly cause the problem you describe, my father had the same problem with this drug.
Kristin
Dear Amanda/S,
I agree with eveyone else. You need to get help ASAP. I am on wellbutrin and cannot think about what it would be like to be on it without a mood stabilizer. YIKES! I'd be hanging from the rafters. I'm sorry you haven't been able to see a pdoc yet. It's important that you see one. Take care of you.
Love,
Jamie
Love,
Hi Amanda,
I'm on 300mg of Wellbutrin XL, and up until 4 days ago, I was on Lamictal.
Thanks for the replies everyone. Being pretty new here I never expected an outpouring of support just needed to let someone know how I feel and my offline friends don't get it. Managed to calm a bit by trying to use up some of the energy and meditating. Still haven't called the clinic. I'm anxious about that. My last time I had to talk to the intake coordinator and tell her so much before I even got my therapist. And if I'm anxious about calling the clinic there's no way I'd go to the ER. I feel they wouldn't take me seriously. I'm not the old fashioned classical manic depressive. I didn't completely lose touch with reality. I think I'm just afraid of someone not believing me. Every time I try to get help for something doesn't really help. Kristin, I know exactly what you mean about once you have it figured out it goes and changes. I just wrote the same thing in my journal. In the summer I thought I had it all figured out but then back to school and a whole new set of factors come in on top of the underlying condition. Seems wellbutrin is common. I'm only at 300 mg for the last three days. But now mood stabilizer mainly because I haven't been to a pdoc and I guess my family doc doesn't want to deal with it. Stupid. He was content to dole out antidepressants to me over the years. Kristin also understand exactly what you're saying about the scrambled brain and inevitable crash. You could be describing my situation. Luckily my manias generally work their way from functional to mildly to moderately interfering before reaching that highest point. Is this what you mean by cycling? When I get there I no longer like it. I'm not productive and creative. I can function no more than when I'm depressed. Plus I start to see the inevitable crash coming and start dreading that which ups the agitation. Still not at that point. I thought I was going straight to that because I started off at the scrambled racing brain. But have managed to control myself a bit. Staying grounded and keeping in touch with reality any way I can. It may sound silly but my doll helps. My first ever doll still have her obviously. Not only does it bring me back to this reality but to a time before any of this began which can sometimes calm me a bit. Or maybe that is just another way of leaving reality. Going back to the fantasy life before mental illness. Does it even exist? Perception changes everything. No one else would see my experiences as I saw them and I wouldn't see the situations of others in the same way. I keep meditating. I have a very simple "calm the seas" one that I do and have been doing about every hour to try and keep from reaching that uncontrollable extreme. Traci what a difference. Wow. Not that I suggest staying off the mood stabilizers. I'm one to talk right. I know. Need to get up the nerve to call the intake coordinator at the clinic and get in but I am haunted by the fear that they won't believe me. And docs don't like people who thing they know everything that is wrong with them. I've always been apprehensive about self-diagnosis. But I, and some of those close to me, know without a doubt that I am. I'm sure you can already get a picture of what I'm like by my posts.
Whoa sorry about that long post. Hope at least one person made it through the whole thing. Really need someone to give me feedback. Need someone who understands. You keep me grounded too.
k bye.
Amanda/Schitz