I know you don't want to hear this either, but as my pdoc says "what goes up, must come down"
I always feel so much better when I'm hypomanic, but unfortunately it is still transient and i eventually fall into depression again. I keep a mood chart and I've been cycling up and down every week (usually i'm down longer than up). I'm hoping that
It affects different people different ways, the "good" feeling can increase to the point where you feel invincible & nothing can go wrong (you really have to watch any decision you make then) or you can feel like everything is spinning out of control, your irritability can increase and you just want off the merry-go-round, but somebody's hid the switch.
Oh, sweetie, I know how you feel, but your sudden change in moods and your lack of sleep say mania to me. All my life, my parents thought I was getting depressed because I tried to do to much and pushing myself made me go into a depression. As I discovered, the need to want to do more and that wonderful euphoric feeling is what leads you to do too much and eventually it slips away. I love it when I am manic, I am the person I always wanted to be. You can embrace it, but don't fuel it.
Marci - I get the same way about ebay when I am manic. My dh starts to see the Paypal payments and knows something is up!
You are probably experiencing ultra rapid cycling, like I do...my moods can switch sometimes in the SAME day...and the agitation and almost rage, is coming from the cycling happening so fast...your brain doesn't know what to "do" or "think"...because its going sooo fast...I really wish your pdoc would call you.
I TOTALLY identify with your rapid change in mood. Most of the time when i cycle down it lasts for a week or so, and when i cycle up, it lasts only a few days, and sometimes I start the day feeling good and midafternoon with no warning I crash. That is what happened yesterday - after a few days of hypomania, in the late afternoon I realized how tired i was and had no energy and since I had felt so well in the morning, I thought I might be coming down with a cold or something. By evening i was definitely depressed and realized what had happened. That had happened to me on a couple of occasions.
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Traci,
I hate to burst your bubble, but the reason your tdoc isn't happy, is because she recognizes the signs of hypomania/mania.
Thanks for the info Marci. Not what I wanted to hear, but I guess what I need to hear. What signs do I look for that the mania may be intensifying?
Traci -
I know you don't want to hear this either, but as my pdoc says "what goes up, must come down"
I always feel so much better when I'm hypomanic, but unfortunately it is still transient and i eventually fall into depression again. I keep a mood chart and I've been cycling up and down every week (usually i'm down longer than up). I'm hoping that
peace and love,
just_a_big_kid
Traci,
It affects different people different ways, the "good" feeling can increase to the point where you feel invincible & nothing can go wrong (you really have to watch any decision you make then) or you can feel like everything is spinning out of control, your irritability can increase and you just want off the merry-go-round, but somebody's hid the switch.
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Thanks Marci.
Thanks Sue.
Oh, sweetie, I know how you feel, but your sudden change in moods and your lack of sleep say mania to me. All my life, my parents thought I was getting depressed because I tried to do to much and pushing myself made me go into a depression. As I discovered, the need to want to do more and that wonderful euphoric feeling is what leads you to do too much and eventually it slips away. I love it when I am manic, I am the person I always wanted to be. You can embrace it, but don't fuel it.
Marci - I get the same way about ebay when I am manic. My dh starts to see the Paypal payments and knows something is up!
Kristin
Okay I took a xanax last night and did actually manage to sleep 6 hours.
Traci,
You are probably experiencing ultra rapid cycling, like I do...my moods can switch sometimes in the SAME day...and the agitation and almost rage, is coming from the cycling happening so fast...your brain doesn't know what to "do" or "think"...because its going sooo fast...I really wish your pdoc would call you.
peace and love,
just_a_big_kid
Sue
peace and love,
just_a_big_kid
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