i cant fight this anymore - trigs

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Registered: 11-18-2003
i cant fight this anymore - trigs
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Tue, 01-04-2005 - 6:23pm

i just dont know how to keep fighting this. the pain of teh depression is more than i can stand rigth now. i cant go to the hospital for a lot of different reasons. my kids being at the top of the list.


i met with the tdoc today and we talked about where i'm at right now, we talked about my paranoia. i was able to get through the hour w/o mentioning the increasing si because that is when she would have me detained. she also told me i needed to call pdoc 'cause the abilify gave me a rash.


so i called pdoc and he pulled me off the abilify and as of tomorrow, has started me on seroquel. i'm tired of new meds every week. i'm tired of side effects. i'm tired of not getting better. the depression gets worse with each swing, the emotional pain is worse w/ each episode.


i'm sorry.

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Registered: 12-20-2004
Wed, 01-05-2005 - 5:13pm

Traci,

You deserve it because your wonderful.

Love,

Jamie

Love,

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