i hate this

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Registered: 11-18-2003
i hate this
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Sat, 01-08-2005 - 11:35pm



TRIGGERS!!!! i forgot to put this in the title. sorry.








i dont even know what tos ay anymore or what to do. it hurts so much. i hate this.i started feeling better today and now its worse than before. im really trying to ignore the voice in my head but i dont know how to fight it anymore. my friend is sleeping and her husband is at work. and im sitting here trying to make the voice stop and its notw orking.


im sorry for being weak and complainng.


traci







Edited 1/8/2005 11:54 pm ET ET by foggymntnbreakdown
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Registered: 12-20-2004
Sat, 01-08-2005 - 11:46pm

Traci,

To say the least you're not weak. You couldn't have made it this far if you were. My suggestion is you go home first thing in the morning. Call your tdoc or pdoc and go to the hospital. You need help! There is no reason for you to even have to try and tough it out any longer. If you thought you were having a heart attack, you'd go straight to the hopital. What's the diffence? It's just a different organ out of wack. Keep posting as much as you need to. Take care of you. Love to you!

Love,

Jamie

Love,

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Registered: 04-09-2004
Sun, 01-09-2005 - 12:35am
GO WAKE UP YOUR FRIEND!!!! Friends understand when we are in pain and need help even if they don't understand the circumstances. She will understand. Please do it now. You are not weak. You are reaching out for help which is a strong smart thing to do. Go wake her up please!!!!!! Amanda
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Registered: 04-09-2004
Sun, 01-09-2005 - 12:40am
If you need to talk to a live person, please put another post on here asap with a personal email address or something. I'm going to go smoke a cigarette and I'll come back and check. I can get your number and call you there. I have unlimited long distance on my cell phone over the weekend and I have no where I need to be tomorrow. I'll check back in a few minutes. Amanda
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Sun, 01-09-2005 - 12:58am




i called thehotline. i took my seroquel and my xanax. im gonna call tdoc when i get home tomorw night and ask about outpatient prgrams. if they dont offer where i live then i guess i have only one option left and thats inpateint. my kids need me as i was reminded of by the person i tlked to. but they need me to get better first. between that and the imagery tracey told me to do and many deep breaths ive at least calmed down to the point where the voice isnt as powerful now. my friends husband also got home from work and hes gonna make sure i get through until i fall asleep.....if that happens. again im sorry.


traci




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Registered: 04-09-2004
Sun, 01-09-2005 - 1:00am
Ok-I'm going to try to get some sleep. I'll probably wake up in the middle of the night since I don't sleep that well. I'll check the board again then. At the very latest, I'll be up by 6:30 central time. I'll check then too. Amanda
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Registered: 04-09-2004
Sun, 01-09-2005 - 8:26am
How are you feeling this morning?
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Registered: 11-18-2003
Sun, 01-09-2005 - 10:03am

im doing a little better this morning. i got some 5 or 6 houers of sleep once the meds kicked in. i also talked to tracey for a bit.

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Registered: 12-20-2004
Sun, 01-09-2005 - 2:12pm

Traci,

I'm so glad you got some sleep. You have a safe trip home. Keep us posted.

Love,

Jamie

Love,