home again - TRIGGERS!

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Registered: 11-18-2003
home again - TRIGGERS!
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Sun, 01-09-2005 - 8:59pm

i am back home. the drive home was not bad. i had my stereo going and just zoned into my music. by the time i got home i was in a little bit better place.

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Registered: 12-20-2004
Sun, 01-09-2005 - 9:09pm

Hi Traci,

I just came on to post a note...Traci are you home yet? and there you were. I'm glad your home safely.

What do you mean about being your Mom's personal assistant? Maybe I'm dull but, I don't know what that means. What did your tdoc say about not going to get help? It's none of my business I know but, I'm still worried about you doing this white knuckling. What ever you decide I will be here for you.

Love,

Jamie

Love,

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Sun, 01-09-2005 - 11:39pm

hi jamie. sorry i didnt clarify the personal assistant thing. i was trying to keep my temper under control, and remain somewhat clear so that when i called tdoc i could talk to her instead of explode to her.

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Mon, 01-10-2005 - 12:29pm

i called tdoc to see about swtihcing appts. she didnt have anything today eimmediatly, but will call me if she gets a cancellation. i also called my pdoc and have a message into him. so now i wait.


im in a very agitated mood right now. ive got the shakes something fierce. my 'temepr' is no longer that it is now rage when i am set off by something and today its not taking much. i went out to try and take some of the enrgy out on a tree that needs to be trimmed up.

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Mon, 01-10-2005 - 1:40pm

Traci,

I am glad to hear you're not depress but, I know what you're going though now is not much fun either. I've been a little hypomanic for several days now. As you can probably tell by some of my posts. Having to go back and add things. I know it's the high dose of welbutrin causing it but, of the two(Manic or depressive) I prefer the hypomanic. I'm going to have to talk to pdoc about an alternitive the next time I see him.

I'm sorry about the rage. That part sucks. I have had that in a long while. My dh is very glad.

I'll keep my fingers crossed that your teachers conference goes well. I know that has got to be difficult for you especially with the x there. That would make me rage!

I had to laugh out loud at the chainsaw thing. Not at you but, at me. I went out this fall to trim the rose bushes vibrating. They are all wonky (if that's a word) now, But they're trimmed. I'm kind of happy for you that the chainsaw broke down. I bet that was a sight to see though!

This is to long. I'll stop for now.

Love,

Jamie

Love,

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Registered: 04-02-2003
Mon, 01-10-2005 - 3:11pm

Traci,


It would be one thing if you were in good health to be expected to be your mother's caretaker, but are NOT and are in desperate need of medical care yourself!

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Mon, 01-10-2005 - 4:49pm

thank you both.