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Today SHOULD be the day...
| Mon, 01-10-2005 - 7:48am |
Good morning ladies,
I am sitting at my desk KNOWING I need to call the doc and too terrified to do it. To me it is an admission of failure, saying...I can't do it on my own. I just feel humiliated about the whole stinking business. I did call the EA over the weekend and pretty much all they would say was they wouldn't give me "legal" advice since they had such a good relationship with my company and they weren't going to ruin it. I don't recall asking for "legal" advice. What a wonderful world we live in! But I suppose if I don't do something soon, I'll fall completely apart again. Not a pleasant 2nd choice. So I am sitting here developing ulcers over it. Why do I always feel like everyone is judging me? That has been a part of my persona for so long, I don't believe it will ever change.
OK, I'm done grumping. Now I'll sit here and try to find my fading courage! :(
Jodie
I am sitting at my desk KNOWING I need to call the doc and too terrified to do it. To me it is an admission of failure, saying...I can't do it on my own. I just feel humiliated about the whole stinking business. I did call the EA over the weekend and pretty much all they would say was they wouldn't give me "legal" advice since they had such a good relationship with my company and they weren't going to ruin it. I don't recall asking for "legal" advice. What a wonderful world we live in! But I suppose if I don't do something soon, I'll fall completely apart again. Not a pleasant 2nd choice. So I am sitting here developing ulcers over it. Why do I always feel like everyone is judging me? That has been a part of my persona for so long, I don't believe it will ever change.
OK, I'm done grumping. Now I'll sit here and try to find my fading courage! :(
Jodie

Jodie,
Hi! I second Amanda pick up the phone. If you were having a heart problem you would call right away. This is just a medical problem in another organ. The paranioa about people judging you is you disease talking. Don't let it win. If you were weak you wouldn't be posting. It take alot of guts to put what's going on with bp in black and white.
As for EA. I wonder if the rep wasn't hinting that you need legal advice but, couldn't say that or she'd get in trouble. Just a thought.
Love,
Jamie
Love,