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| Fri, 01-14-2005 - 1:30am |
Oh boy, appointment coming up in 8 hrs(CSD disability services). I just got home from work and should get some sleep. I've been so exhausted today and it seems there is no end in sight. I still have the appointment, school and work, and work again Saturday, up early Sunday for church, two services take most of my day, and then start all over again Monday. Sigh. It's like this every week but today I was more exhausted than usual. I didn't think I'd make it through the night at work. But I worked by myself for most of the night, so I had to keep going to get everything done. If I had stopped I would have surely passed out on the counter.
I thought I would not worry about my appointments. I thought I was prepared, I talked to someone who has disability accommodations. I thought I'd be okay but I already feel like I'm going to have a panic attack. That should make getting to sleep fun.
Also I would just like to say hi to everyone, hugs, and my thoughts are with you. I could not come up with a coherent response to your messages. Ugh.
If I can, I will hook up my laptop at school and let you guys know how it went, but I have to go straight to two classes after the appointment, so it won't be until 12:30 at least. Plus I should use that time between then and my 3:30 class to get school work done. I have a task (or two or three) to do every day so there is no taking a break. I'm already behind on today's work. I was supposed to write a reflection paper for tomorrow's tutorial but there is no way I can do that now and I didn't have time during the day today - 2 hrs between class and spent most of it running around to the pharmacy, signing up for the quit smoking contest and ??? I don't remember what else.
Ya, I'm quitting smoking on Monday. I have to keep it up for 6 weeks with no slip ups to be eligible to win the prize (CO tests during the 6 weeks and at the end plus a urine test at the end!) Like I need any more stress. I wonder what this is going to do to my mood?!
Amanda


((((amanda)))) good luck today! i'll be sending you positive vibes;)
Hey sweetie!
I would love to quit smoking together. I'm on here every night. It may seem like a bit of short notice, but we can't put it off forever. I only just signed up and found out the date yesterday. I'm cutting back today through Sunday (7, 5, 3) and that's it come monday. I'm really nervous about doing it though. I wasn't going to but now I'm thinking I might need to get some nicorette or something. At least I'm on Wellbutrin, although I haven't noticed a difference since I've been on it.
Once again tonight I am exhausted and will not be posting to everyone. Again, hugs to all.
Amanda
edit: silly me in my crazy exhaustion I almost forgot to mention about my appointment. It was okay. I'm glad I prepared everything ahead of time and wrote it down because I wouldn't have remembered anything. She has given me even more possible accommodations than I imagined. I just wanted to be able to hand in my essay from last semester and do assignments instead of tutorials. She added flexibility in due dates (like that essay which came in the middle of a I-can't-get-out-of-bed-I'm-so-depressed phase), freedom to stand and stretch when I get restless and need to move around, (maybe) segmented exams (2 45 minute blocks), exam in a separate room with a small group for the distraction factor (I could have written completely alone, but the room would be very small and that is one of the problems) I'm sure there were more, she had about 6 or more things written down, but of course I can't remember. My memory really sucks lately, and I'm not even having an episode.
Edited 1/15/2005 1:24 am ET ET by schitz