need to stop this ride - trigs
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need to stop this ride - trigs
| Sat, 01-15-2005 - 11:12pm |
WHY does this keep happening????????? 24 hours ago i was more manic than ever and was struggling to stay put and be good. now im back to where i was a week ago. the bad thoughts are back and loud. i keep telling myself that they arent true but im not sure anymore. if they arent true why are they still tormenting me.
im afraid to call tdoc 'cause i cant go inpatient right now theres too much happneng here to be able to do that. i met wiith her yesterday and she and pdoc are still wroking on finding



Hi Traci,
Aren't you lucky! You get to experience the worst part of bp. I'm so sorry!
You have diabetes. There are good days and bad. You can have a bad day even though your taking your medicine watching your diet and exercising the way you're supposed to. What do you do when your sugar goes high anyway? You call and talk to your doctor and go into the hospital if necessary. As soon as your sugar is back under control and you learn somemore about controling the disease they let you out of the hospital. Explain to me the difference between this and bp. I don't see one.
I love you honey and just hate to see you suffer over something you don't have too. We've all been there. Like Marci said she had to say screw it and declair bankruptsy. I had to say screw it and live on $500 a month and food stamps for a while. You have to take care of yourself right now. You don't want to get as bad as you were last week.(though it sounds like you're almost there already) No matter what's going on there it can happen without you. Take care of you!
Love,
Jamie
Love,
I'm so sorry you're going through this, Traci...unfortunately I don't know of a good solution either, but I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you after I read your post. When it's that bad for me, I sometimes think to myself, "I just have to make it through this one minute, and then the minute after that." Thinking about the things that could happen later on seems to make me feel even worse...I know that you've probably heard that before, though.
You're not hopeless...you can make it through this, with help...hang in there,
Rose
(((((Traci)))))
I wish I could take your pain away. It will get better. If you can just get through the next minute, hour, day. I have to do that in more ways than one. When I feel like doing "something stupid", or drinking, or smoking (as of 2 mintutes ago). I just tell myself I'm not going to do anything for the next minute, and then do something else, don't just sit there and wait for the minute to be up to do something.
You are very loved and needed and wanted and special and important. You are not hopeless.
Take care of yourself.
Love,
Amanda