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| Mon, 01-17-2005 - 1:07pm |
It's my teenage anger rant time folks. :p Hope you don't mind.
It's officially been a week since my last depression break down. Last Monday I ran into my ex on my way to my class and shouted at him for making me so depressed in the past four months, which in turn made me completely uncomfortible with myself at work that night and I ended up spending a good hour on the phone with my local mental health hotline because I was feeling rather hopeless if you catch my drift
It felt like things were getting better as the week, but things at my job seem to be getting worse and worse as the month progresses. Our owner, who is a sexist, agist (he doesn't want our store hiring anymore young people because they are irresponsible, unreliable and don't want to be there...you know, punk-ass good-for-nothing 20-year-olds like me.) pr*ck who doesn't know how to run a business logically, fired our manager back the week before Christmas and made our replacement manager quit. So now, we're down to six people with one true part time worker and one who's off sick indeffantly because she developed tonsillius and had a major allergic reaction to the penillian. So now, because I don't want to get fired or don't want to seem disloyal, I told them they can put me in to work as many time as they need within my limits as a student, and what do I get? Full-time hours on a full-time college schedule. On top of that, I'm doing a play I became committed to when our beloved owner decided he wanted the part timer's hours to be cut because the business wasn't doing so good and I had a feeling I would be there past the Christmas rush - and believe me, I had every right to think so.
Yah, I know - I shouldn't be complaining because it's money and it's all part of life (which is what my mom keeps reminding me), but I'm encredibly scared I'm going to have another breakdown and I know these breakdowns are a lot different than a normal person's break down. Does anybody have any coping advice?
(There is some good news from all of this: my family might be taking a trip to Florida to visit an uncle the week after my final exams. We won't be doing any of the tourist stuff, which is fine by me by any means (I hate Mickey Mouse), but it will give me an opporunity to get as far away as I possibly can and recharge for a week. It's something to look forward to indefantly!)
Edited 1/17/2005 1:17 pm ET ET by missemilyjane

Hi missemilyjane,
I can relate a bit to what you're saying. I am a full time university student, and being bipolar that is enough of a struggle, and work 30hrs/wk. I agree with the not hiring young people, but I'm thinking 14-17. Every one of the young people has been pretty irresponsible self-centred and lazy. I'm not saying every young person is. I got my first job at 17 (if you don't count babysitting and teaching piano :P ) There is no way that I would say all 18-20-somethings are good for nothing! Bosses can be a pain, or so I've heard :P lol. I have a great boss right now. I also bend over backwards so that he doesn't have to work and am always taking the extra shifts and coming in on my days off because the person who was filling in for me can't. grr. a little resentment there?!
You won't get fired for needing less hours. (I'd get a lawyer if you do). If that's what you need to do for your health then that's what you need to do.
I don't know if I have any words of wisdom, in fact all the messages I've read so far have not inspired anything but I'm a little off the map today. I just wanted to let you know that I understand and am here for you.
Canadian, eh? Me too. Also in Ontario!
Hugs,
Amanda