met with tdoc tonight.....poss trigs?
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met with tdoc tonight.....poss trigs?
| Thu, 01-20-2005 - 7:55pm |
well, i have just spent the past hour unloading on tdoc. the biggest thing i went in there with was the recurrance of the nightmares and my resurgance of rage. i told her that my biggest fear with the two combined is that i will get to a point where i do in real life what is in my dreams.
she explained that the rage, although very strong right now, is a natural reaction for me with everything going on with me, my mother, etc. she is concerned about me finding a positive outlet for this rage. because when i get like this i tend to take it out on myself. so, she had me sign a contract for safety. and tomorrow i am to call around to some places that we discussed for possible outlets.



Traci,
I'm happy your Mom came through everything okay. I am also proud of you for telling the doc about her alcholism. It took guts. You may have told us but I just realized that she's going to rehab instead of home. That was a very smart move.
I wish you could have gotten some answers on your dreams. You take care of yourself.
Love,
Jamie
Love,
Traci,
I'm glad you met with your tdoc, but even happier to hear that not only did your mom get through the surgery well, but that she's going to a rehab center after and happiest of all that you found the strength to tell the doc about her drinking!
(((traci)))
Sounds like things with your mom should work out. I'll keep you and her in my prayers. As a fellow 12-stepper and coming from a background of alcoholism I know it can be tough, on both ends of the spectrum. I gave up alcohol because I thought I was starting to drink too much and for the wrong reasons and alone. Red flags for me. Dad and both grandfathers are sober alcoholics (well mom's dad is dead and I never met him). So I was definately aware of the possibility for it in my future.
Ramble all you like.
Love,
Amanda
thanks marci. the weird thing is, while it's a huge weight lifted, i dont feel any different. i thought i would feel relieved or something, but the rage is still strong and the racing thoughts and the all around wrestlessness.
thanks jamie.
thanks amanda.