met with tdoc tonight.....poss trigs?

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met with tdoc tonight.....poss trigs?
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Thu, 01-20-2005 - 7:55pm

well, i have just spent the past hour unloading on tdoc. the biggest thing i went in there with was the recurrance of the nightmares and my resurgance of rage. i told her that my biggest fear with the two combined is that i will get to a point where i do in real life what is in my dreams.


she explained that the rage, although very strong right now, is a natural reaction for me with everything going on with me, my mother, etc. she is concerned about me finding a positive outlet for this rage. because when i get like this i tend to take it out on myself. so, she had me sign a contract for safety. and tomorrow i am to call around to some places that we discussed for possible outlets.

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Thu, 01-20-2005 - 8:08pm

Traci,

I'm happy your Mom came through everything okay. I am also proud of you for telling the doc about her alcholism. It took guts. You may have told us but I just realized that she's going to rehab instead of home. That was a very smart move.

I wish you could have gotten some answers on your dreams. You take care of yourself.

Love,

Jamie

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Thu, 01-20-2005 - 8:13pm

Traci,


I'm glad you met with your tdoc, but even happier to hear that not only did your mom get through the surgery well, but that she's going to a rehab center after and happiest of all that you found the strength to tell the doc about her drinking!

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Thu, 01-20-2005 - 8:14pm

(((traci)))

Sounds like things with your mom should work out. I'll keep you and her in my prayers. As a fellow 12-stepper and coming from a background of alcoholism I know it can be tough, on both ends of the spectrum. I gave up alcohol because I thought I was starting to drink too much and for the wrong reasons and alone. Red flags for me. Dad and both grandfathers are sober alcoholics (well mom's dad is dead and I never met him). So I was definately aware of the possibility for it in my future.

Ramble all you like.

Love,

Amanda

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Thu, 01-20-2005 - 10:49pm

thanks marci. the weird thing is, while it's a huge weight lifted, i dont feel any different. i thought i would feel relieved or something, but the rage is still strong and the racing thoughts and the all around wrestlessness.

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Thu, 01-20-2005 - 11:02pm

thanks jamie.

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Thu, 01-20-2005 - 11:14pm

thanks amanda.