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| Wed, 01-26-2005 - 2:53pm |
Do you ever look at your husband and want to punch him in the face? well thats exactly what i wanted to do this morning. i had to go to get a MRI done because i have endometriosis and my appointment was at 10:15. Well DH is slow as molassas and was "fartin" (takin his time) around the house all morning. im a very fast dresser, it doesnt take me long to get ready for anything so im sitting there waiting for Mr.Fancy Pants to get ready. the clocks ticking and i kindly remind him i have to be there at 10:15, it was 10:05 and its a 20 mon. drive. Well he looks at me and says " i was waiting for you! and besides, i was up at 8:00 taking care of YOUR dog." now i get up at 6:30 EVERYDAY to take Gifford out for a walk. he feels that he shouldn't have to do that cause " i get up and go to work every day and you get to stay home" I KNOW he has to get up for work and i KNOW Im at home. but Darnit if your up, why can't u let the dog out? give me a break sometimes. im very groggy from all the meds i take at night so it's very hard for me to get it together in the mornings. i just think that just because he gets up to go to work doesn't mean i should take total responsibily for the dog ALL the time!
Im sorry, im way of point here... He just doesnt know how close he comes to catching a serious beatdown about 5 times of every day. It takes all i can to keep from knocking the *&%$# out of him! i know im cycling when i feel this way, his attitude about BP is a serious trigger for me. i know he loves me but i think he chooses the moments he feels warrants BP behavior from just not wanting to try hard enough. i guess you call it selective reasoning. i don't know if im explaining this right, im just sooo pissed off right now!
thanks for letting me rant! i feel much better now....kinda!
valerie

Please know that i would never do anything to hurt DH!! i don't mean to alarm anyone! just venting! i felt i had to say that before someone sent the police to my house
valerie
valerie,
i can so relate to what you are saying. when i was married, there were many times i felt the way you describe. and now, since my dx, i can see where a lot of it came in to play, only i didn't know there was anything 'wrong' with me then........despite ex dh's repeated comments that i 'need help'. he doesn't know just how right he was, and i'm fairly certain i'll never tell him.......his ego is big enough as it is.
now i'm getting the help i have needed for apparently many years. and the meds have me in that wonderful zone state. who knows how long it will last. i'm not in any hurry for it to go anywhere, that much i know.
so, rant, vent all you want. i'm sure i'm not the only one here who can relate to what you're going through. and i'm fairly certain that nobody thinks you're serious about hurting your dh.
hugs
traci
you are very welcome.
Hi,
The next time he tells you the you stay home bit ask him what he would do if you were a diabetic adjusting to your insulin. There's no differnce.
Glad your feeling calmer! Watch out for the ED thing it can sneek up on you! (But you already knew that.
Love,
Jamie
Love,