You are all my rock.......thank you

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Registered: 04-02-2003
You are all my rock.......thank you
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Thu, 01-27-2005 - 1:13pm

I don't know what I would do w/o you all. I am not having a great day, but it is better than yesterday.

I emailed the x and told him that I can't see or talk to him any more. He wants me to be the "other woman". First of all, I have more morals than that and I could NEVER do that to another woman. I put myself in her shoes. I feel for her. He's a very charming, extremely good looking man, he looks like Alan Jackson with some meat on his bones. LOL But looks aren't everything. Beauty is skin deep really comes to mind when I think of my x.

Mom helped me a lot last night. She thinks I'm nuts for holding onto feelings for him, but I can't shake them. I mean I'm not in love w/him, I guess it is a simple case of jealously. Why does she get the man I fell in love with and I got the Ahole? I guess it was just not meant to be. LOrd I hope he doesn't hit her too.

But.....I got some benadryl and it seemed to help a little. I ended up over sleeping today and was 1.5 hours late for work, but I feel a little better. I can't wear makeup because of the rash on my face.....so I'm sort of in hiding. I don't want the cute guy on the 7th floor to see me like this. LOL

Well.......I'm going to go smoke a cig and get back to work.

You all are my rock. I love you each and every one. If I didn't have you all I seriously doubt I'd be here to type. It is pretty bad, the thoughts and all.

(((((HUGS))))) and so many Thanks!!!!!
Carla

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Thu, 01-27-2005 - 8:44pm

Carla,


You said you couldn't wear makeup because of the rash.

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Registered: 12-20-2004
Fri, 01-28-2005 - 11:27am

Hi Carla,

I was happy to hear you're doing at least a little better today.

The benadryl at least always take away my itching and pain. I hope it did the same for you. That's usually enough for me to calm down a little and the rash starts going away. It might not be enough if I had a cute guy on the 7th floor though .

I'm exetremely proud of you for emailing the x. I glad you have more self respect than to be the other women. All that would do is give the Ah**e all the benifits without any of the responsibility.

I can understand still having feelings for someone though. I think it takes time to mourn the loss of a relationship. Usually the first step in mourning is getting over the denile that the relationship is over. Then the mourning period can start weather it be long or short. It took me years and two marriages to finally mourn the loss of my second husband and get over it.

Love,

Jamie

Love,