Amanda/Milama

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Amanda/Milama
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Wed, 02-02-2005 - 1:38pm

Are you there chicky? Haven't seen a post from you in a while. How are things going?

Kristen

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In reply to: kdvaleski
Mon, 02-07-2005 - 10:39pm
I'm here and surviving. I haven't been on the board much in the last couple of weeks. So far this year hasn't been a whole lot of fun. Major reorg at work, not sure if I still had a job, co worker died, hubby's grandfather has been in the ICU for 10 days. He's only alive because of a ventilator and drugs. He has a DNR, but his children decided not to give it to the hospital until 8 days after his heart attack. It's been a little stressful the last few months with the stuff above and the holidays and a quick trip to NY to see my mom. I'm doing ok. Pdoc still thinks I'm talking to fast and doesn't like my sleeping habits. He gave me Ambien (without me asking for it). He also wanted me to get general labs done--urinalysis, cholesterol, thyroid, etc--then I asked what the code he had written in at the bottom was--turns out it was a drug test--he seems to think I might be self medicating. Hello--I'm ex-military, married to a cop, and work for the state government--Give me a break. I have no problem with people doing drugs so long as they stay home, off the street, away from my kids and they don't expect me to use. I know myself way too well and it would be so EASY to fall into that trap and not be able to get out. Hell, I'm addicted to nicotine and caffeine as it is--I don't need anything else at this point. Anyhow, I'm ok. Still not sleeping well, but I don't like taking the ambien when I'm home alone with the kids which is 5 days out of 7. I'm going to try to go to bed in a while. Thanks for checking up on me. Amanda
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In reply to: kdvaleski
Mon, 02-07-2005 - 10:57pm

Hey Amanda,

Sorry to hijack the thread :D Good to hear from you. You do "sound" a little fast...strange how that is that I can "hear" you through the computer lol. I guess it just comes from experience. Now if only I could recognize that in myself. I guess I do after the fact. Right now I can't trust my moods because of the frequent med changes, ah what can you do. Enough about me. oops.

Hugs,

Amanda II

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Tue, 02-08-2005 - 10:18pm
Amanda II-Don't worry about hijacking the thread--that way I know someone read what I wrote!!! :) I have been talking a little fast. I've been a little anxious the last few days, but I know that is just stress. It should calm down when we stop this rollercoaster with my husband's grandfather. If not, I have to see my pdoc in a month--which just irritates me because I was FINALLY going every 2-3 months and he is making them more frequent now. I'm hoping that he finally realizes that yes, I am talking faster now, but the past 6 months or so are the first time he has ever seen me when I wasn't depressed!!!! Anyhow, I'm here and doing ok. I'll be around more once things calm down a little. Amanda I