Haven't been around... (triggers)

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Haven't been around... (triggers)
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Wed, 02-02-2005 - 4:42pm

...lately, been lurking as usual, but things are going bad...

I'm cutting 3-4 times a day and I'm not eating. I hate myself. I really hate myself. My therapist is trying to stop the slide. I'm gonna see a new (and expensive) pdoc on the 16th.

I keep thinking about my weight and how no one will ever love me this way...and I dearly want to have another partner someday (I'm divorced and a single parent).

Things happened when I was young but I can't remember them...did they relly happen?

I'm just soooo confused and sliding into the blackness....

Rowan

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Fri, 02-04-2005 - 12:26am

Wow Rowan that poem is amazing. I can really relate (although I could never write it so eloquently). Keep writing those poems. Even though mine suck I keep writing because it seems to help.

Lots of hugs and love,

Amanda

(edit...apparantly I can't even spell my name lol)




Edited 2/4/2005 12:28 am ET ET by schitz

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Fri, 02-04-2005 - 8:44am
Hugs to you too, Jamie.
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Fri, 02-04-2005 - 8:45am

Thanks for the suggestions....and hugs, Morgaine.

Rowan

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Fri, 02-04-2005 - 8:46am

Thanks for the kind words!

Hugs,
Rowan

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Fri, 02-04-2005 - 1:16pm

Thanks Rowan,

I didn't know how much I needed that hug until I got it.

Love,

Jamie

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