I think I know why I am freaking out....

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Registered: 01-05-2004
I think I know why I am freaking out....
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Fri, 02-04-2005 - 8:50am

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...it is the 2 year anniversary of when my Mom went in the hospital, and later died. It just hit me. So maybe that's why I'm having so much trouble....

I still blame myself a little for what my Mom went through...trust me you don't ever want to die in a hospital.

But maybe this is where the clinging darkness is coming from, and the self-destructive feelings....

Thanks everyone so much for being sooo supportive!

Hugs,
Rowan

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-01-2004
Fri, 02-04-2005 - 9:46am

Rowan,


Those sad anniversaries have a way of creeping up on us, don't they?

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-20-2004
Fri, 02-04-2005 - 1:42pm

Rowan,

Of Course that could be where the darkness is coming from! That even happens to "normies". I have a friend who is a well grounded "earthling" and she HATES the month of October because so many people she cares about died in October. We just put our own special twist on the greef by being bp.

Take care of you! Let us know how you are doing!!!!

Love,

Jamie

Love,

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-23-2004
Fri, 02-04-2005 - 8:33pm

Rowan,


Good job on pinpointing a cause.