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| Fri, 02-04-2005 - 4:08pm |
OMG.....I've been trying to get the pdocs office on the phone now since 8, they came in at 7:45!! I have no nerve pills at all and I'm on edge. I feel like going over there and throwing things around the office. The pharmacy that I get my meds filled is in the same building and they close in exactly 1 hour and are closed over the weekend. So, this means I have no paxil or klonopin until then. I am so pissed I can't see straight. NOt to mention my x called and gave me a guilt trip because he is unhappy. Booo Freakin' Hoo!
I've literally HAD IT yall. I can't think straight, my best friend who I adore just told me he is getting married...again to the WRONG person. I just am so stressed. I know I'm going to go postal or something over the weekend and I just do not ______ deserve it!!!
Why do I get crapped on so much. I just can't understand it. I do all I can for everyone I know and then when I think I'm almost on a happy level some idiot comes by and pulls it right out from under me. Life is really sucking for me right now.
Of course there is more than this, but it has just built up to where I'm just about ready to explode.
If it isn't the pdoc it's the x and now my b/f doing something VERY STUPID for all the wrong reasons. But, I can't shake the thoughts I'm having.
I dread Valentine's Day. I think I'd rather have the plague than be here at work when all the idiots that think they are in love get flowers. Sorry, to me love does not exist, it can't. AT least not in my mind. I'd rather jump from a roof than see one rose. In ten days if I'm not in a better frame of mind pdoc may have to just come see me in the hospital and when he does I'm letting him know it all could have been avoided if the lazy people he has in his office had friggin called me back.
Sorry! Thanks for the space to vent
Carla

(((((Carla))))),
Hopefully your pdoc got everything into the pharmacy before they closed--if not is there another one that you can get it filled at this once (I know how insurannce companies restrict us!)
Carla,
I hope your pdoc can called another phram covered by your insurance. My doc and pdoc don't call me when they call something in. I either have to call them and check or call the pharm. We use the pharm at my doctors too but, when we have an emergency we use one at the local grocery that my insurance approves.
I'm sorry about your friend. I had a friend that did that too. I actually didn't go to the wedding. I just couldn't act like I approved. She ended up divorced.
Now your X, I would dump him like a hot potato! What a whiner! I cut mine out of my life! He had too many problems of his own for me to carry around mine and his. That's exactly what he was trying to get me to do. It sounds like what your X is doing to. It's like you're carrying around this huge turkey platter with a 40 lb Turkey on it (bp) and he's trying to add another one cause he's too lazy to carry it himself. If he's unhappy about something, that's on him.
I may insult someone here so bare with me. I apologize if I do. I think flowers are a tacky unimaginative Valentines Day gift. I'm not thrilled when I get them either. I feel sorry when others get them. It just shows how small minded the person is that gives them. (ONLY MY OPINION) I think you should feel sorry for those that get them for Valentines Day! Approach it that way! It will be a sinch!
Just hang on honey! This will work out even if you have to call your pdoc emergency number. Let us know how everything works out.
Love,
Jamie
Love,