Everything's fallen apart-trigs?
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| Tue, 02-08-2005 - 2:31pm |
Folks, some time ago, I put up a post that everything was going well. It's as if it was a trigger for the fates to come pick on me again. Not long after that, the engine blew in my car. It was quite traumatic: I had to spend all the money I saved for my wedding on a new car. I got depressed, and started having anxiety attacks. Then, I did my taxes. Not counting SSI, I only made $2800 in '04. It made me feel like a loser.
That brings me to today. I stayed in bed until well after lunch, crying intermittently. I was literally too depressed to move. I finally got up, knowing I would have to in order to go to the counselor.
My mind isn't too clear right now. One thought keeps coming back though: why would the man I'm marrying want to marry a woman who can't make money and who can do nothing but stay in bed? Could someone tell me that? I really want to believe that I could be loved.
Maybe I'll write more later when my mind works again...
--Beth "Petrouchka"

Beth,
I can answer that. It is simple, he LOVES you. He wants to marry you for that reason. Please don't think anything other than that. I'm sure he has told you, but i know sometimes it just doesn't seem like enough, but it is. Love makes so much of a difference. He'll support you in any way possible. He knows that you are ill, not just lazy ya know.
HUGS
Carla
Beth,
I think Carla hit it on the head--he loves you!