visions/dreams and voices ???

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Tue, 02-08-2005 - 10:43pm

Lately the voices are back...which is expected as they usually only show up when i'm manic and really getting messed.

My question is are visions psychotic features? I know hallucination is but it's not like I see things in the real world around me as well as what's really there but I am taken away to a totally different place (although very much a reflection of reality) and see what will happen (and now I'm freaking because of today's).

The other day I had SI vision and things happened exactly as they did in my vision (i know the objections to that btw), I had one about an argument with a friend and that happened. Today I had one that I will get into a huge argument with my coworker (although I don't work with her right now...after her) and even in front of my boss and customers and had a major freakout and rage..i never want to bring up these things with my doc b/c I think he will think I'm psycho. I remember last time I was at the clinic the doc gave me some questionnaire (I think it was the borderline inventory) and it asked if i felt I had special powers or something and I'm thinking ya I'm a witch, and there was stuff that seemed like "normal" psychic stuff...mind reading etc.

When my doc was filling the form for school he asked about psychotic features. i didn't answer

well that's enough from me

amanda

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Tue, 02-08-2005 - 11:28pm

hi amanda!


i'm no expert, but i do think that that might be considered delusions of grandeur... you are saying that you're psychic, and have greater powers than most.

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Tue, 02-08-2005 - 11:41pm

Thanks Beth, nice to hear from you. It's nice to see you on this board! (((hugs))) So how are you doing today?

Amanda

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Wed, 02-09-2005 - 2:22am

Amanda, I'm sorry, that sounds incredibly stressful...I don't know what to tell you about what those visions could be. I think it's possible they could be related to psychotic features somehow...it does seem like something you should bring up with your doctor if you feel comfortable enough doing that. Maybe once you do get into the clinic and have a regular doctor, you'll trust that person enough to tell him or her about the visions?

I just wanted to let you know I was listening, and I care...you have been so great and supportive of me, and I'm sorry you're having to struggle like this.

Hugs,

Rose

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Wed, 02-09-2005 - 3:22am

Thanks Rose,

Ya it is stressful in this case because I'm worried about my job and I already had a lot of stress to begin with. At other times I wouldn't worry so much. The visions aren't as frequent as the voices, but I'm sure I'll get used to them. I have accepted the voices as a part of who I am after all these years.

I really do like and trust my doc but I think he really wouldn't believe me and if he did, as I said, he'd think I was completely nuts. The same fear stands with the clinic. When I was there I totally didn't want to be answering yes to all these things. Apparantly many bipolars are misdiagnosed as schizophrenic because of it, either that or they are "schizoaffective" - a combo of schizo and affective disorders (which depression, bipolar etc are part of).

I really don't see it as problematic I just wondered if anyone else either thinks they are psychotic features, has experienced them, or believes in visions etc and therefore doesn't believe it to be part of mental illness.

Amanda

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Wed, 02-09-2005 - 12:32pm

Amanda,


Some of this could be a "supernatural" phenomena (okay, I'll be the first to admit I kind of believe in that sort of thing & have experienced it first hand), but some of it could be you bringing the vision to life and some of it could just be plain psychosis and grandiose ideas.


As to the SI incident--you had the idea or "vision" of it and acted it out--so that's pretty basic; but the argument with your friend is something else.

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Wed, 02-09-2005 - 3:39pm

Amanda,

Ditto to what Marci said!

Love,

Jamie

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Thu, 02-10-2005 - 1:57am

Thanks for the replies everyone. It's good to know there is consensus on the subject ;) lol. It's tough to say. I do believe in the supernatural but the fact that this is not something that happens all the time could be a clue.

As for the SI incident, yes I am aware I could have acted out my vision, but I cannot have made the other people act out my vision (or could I? ;) hmmm)

Just to note, the vision I had for today DIDN'T come true. I did everything in my power to rewrite that script and it worked. I did everything the opposite of my vision and it was good. At first I doubted my vision because it didn't come true, but now I think that things aren't set in stone and maybe that was a warning to change my behaviour or that would be the consequence.

Also, I have had those hallucinations upon waking that were mentioned in another thread.

Well that's all for now

Amanda

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Thu, 02-10-2005 - 3:47am

Do you think it's possibly the meds you are on? When I was first diagnosed I went through so many different meds and a lot of them caused me to see and hear things. It was mostly at night and during MAJOR depression episodes. I'd see things in the corners of my ceiling and I'd hear horribly negative things about myself which caused me to be stuck in the house for a whole year. Finally with different med changes these things went away.


But I'm not sure if this is the same thing you are going through, I just thought I'd throw my info out there and see if it was similar to your experiences.


I have had several dreams come true and I can often sense things before they happen or are about to happen. At my church they call that the gift of discernment. Perhaps you have that and it has nothing to do with any illness.


Hope things get easier for you, {{{HUGS}}}

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Thu, 02-10-2005 - 9:06pm

Amanda,

I am writing this with much love in my heart. Please don't think I'm trying to lable you with something else! I was just concerned enough to do a little research.

First I want to tell you the supernatural thing is not something that I poo poo on. I knew my father had cancer before the doctors did. According to what the doc said it would have form about the time I knew he had cancer. The same thing happened with my FIL's cancer. So I do believe in the supernatural or the "Gift" Brandi was talking about.

Now, I've done some reading on bp and Hallucinations. I think this is serious enough that you need to write it down (like a journal)and show it to your doc. I know you don't have a pdoc right now and that's not an option for you. At least show it to Chritine or the new guy. These may not be anything but a special gift but, it might be something more serious. These things can be part of extreme bp but there are other things that can cause them. Please don't take this too lightly. You're better off knowing what you're dealing with. I don't mean this to sound alarmist it's just that from what I read it's important.

You know I love you girl.

Love,

Jamie

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Fri, 02-11-2005 - 9:38am

Brandi,

I thought about it being the meds but I don't know for sure. The voices have been around for years and I don't really worry about them. The visions are fairly new (at least in this form) but there have been similar things at different times throughout my life.

I see my doc in a week so I'll have to see if I have more visions by then. I actually hope not becuase they haven't been good so far.

I'd like to think that it is a gift too, but I never know because I do have a mental illness and see it coming up in questions I have been asked before, although I had never thought of that kind of thing as abnormal.

My last vision did come true too. It's not just seeing or hearing things.

Thanks for the reply.

Amanda

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