I'm Losing It Slowly...AGAIN...
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I'm Losing It Slowly...AGAIN...
| Wed, 02-09-2005 - 12:57pm |
Well, SO much has happened the last few days that I am truly starting to lose it...as Tracey told you, my husband's father passed away over the weekend...this has been tough...I was out of work on Monday and Tuesday...and TOTALLY forgot my pdoc appt this morning...UGH...anyway, I get to work, and my boss reams me...he said that my office mate has heard me on the phone last week, and I seemed agitated and argumentative and she was embarrassed to be on her business calls because I was using really bad language.

(((((keli)))))
Darling I can totally relate to your post. I could have written it. People think that we can just shake off our feelings and go on. My Mom is one of them, my bosses, friends, exhusband, you name it. The only people who know is those of us who suffer as well with BP.
IT SUCKS that this disorder has to do this to us, and then you have all the other sh** on top of it all. It isn't fair!!!! I wish I could take your place so you wouldn't have to go through it. I'm so sorry.
There are days here at work that I'm ready to throw things across the room, I go smoke and it doesn't help. I take my vistaril and it takes so long to work. I wish I had answers for you. I don't, but I have plenty of support and a good "ear".
If you need me, I'm only a send button away.
(((((HUGS)
Carla
Keli, I'm so sorry about your FIL, your day at work, and the whole bag. I hate to broach the topic here, but you have been struggling hard for quite a while now, and having such a hard time with cycling...have you thought about disability, at least temporary disability? Maybe under FMLA? Work sounds like a huge stressor for you right now, and maybe it would help to have some time away from that stress, with your job not in jeopardy, and you would be able to draw disability to help financially so you don't lose all of your income.
Sorry if that's totally out of line, but I know that even when you're not well enough to really be at work you don't have the time to take personal days.
Hang in there, and HUGS!!!!
Kristen
Keli,
Hi! I'm sorry everything is piling on at once. This may be none of my business but I think your office mate owes you an apology for not talking to you about it before she went to the boss and lieing about the meds. Just my opinion. Just because your bp doesn't mean you're someones door mat.
I like what Kristen said about thinking about disability. It just might help.
I'm sorry you missed you pdoc appointment. I know you had to get off your meds but, do you have any alternatives. Is he going to try other meds? I know that's part of why it's so tough for you right now.{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}
Love,
Jamie
Love,
(((((Keli))))),
I'm SO sorry all this other crap gets piled on when you're already feeling lousy.
Oh Keli!!! Major Hugs! I am so sorry you are having a rough time. I'm sorry I didn't reply earlier but I'm having a rough time too. *Smack* for your boss. Some people just don't get it. I just wanted to say I'm here for you.
Love, hugs and strength.
Amanda
I wanted to tell you that despite all you've been going through at work and how weak it has made you feel, I'm so utterly impressed with you and the others here that actually have jobs.
I can't have one that isn't with either my mom or my dh. I worked with my mom for many years and it was only possible because she was the only person I dealt with (she has a new job now and I can't work with her there).
The thought of even trying to go out and get job makes me shake, and working with new people, well it's just not going to happen!
My disease keeps me from going anywhere by myself except for a few places and even then I'm a nervous wreck the whole time. I have to drive the same route every time because change is too much.
I'm sorry that things have been so hard, I really, really feel for you. But know that I'm very impressed that you managed to get through your day and even hold down a job. I envy you!!! To me you seem very strong even if you don't feel like it:) I hope things get easier for you and I'm very sorry about your FIL. Hugs to your family.
Keli,
I wish there was something I could say to make it all better.