Update on mom and meds

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Update on mom and meds
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Wed, 02-09-2005 - 10:01pm

I spent the whole day and evening at the hospital with my mom. I am so tired. I talked to her doctor and he said she is really bad off. The only thing that will cure her is a lung transplant. She only has 35% function of her lungs. They are trying to get her qualified for her insurance to pay for a BiPAP machine which will give her forced and constant air for at home. That is what they have on her in the hospital. I asked the doc how long he thought my mom might have to live and he said he of course isn't God but he doesn't think it will be any longer then 5 yrs give or take, but 10 yrs is really really pushing it. So, basically I will be watching my mom slowly die and not knowing when it might happen. My mom is my best friend in the whole world. I can go to her about anything and she will love me know matter what and I never had a relationship with anyone else like that. I will lose my best friend and mom. I know she is here now and I know I need to cherish the days I have left with her, but it is real hard to deal with the thought of losing her. I don't have anyone else in my family that I am close to. I have a sister but we aren't as close as me and my mom. My brother died a year ago. My dad died when I was 17. I feel I am losing everyone around me. Then my bf's dad just died in November and I thought of him as a second dad.

I went to my pdoc today and he is such a jerk. He was trying to tell me I wanted to go off my Risperdal and on Seroquel because of weight gain. I NEVER told him that. I told him I was having a hard time sleeping and he took me off the Risperdal and on Seroquel for sleep. He said that me being biplar and going off Risperdal produced the anxiety and panic. He said that was my mood stabilizer. I asked him why he didn't keep me on and give me something else for sleep. He just sat there with a dumb look on his face. So now I will be taking Risperdal again but only on 2 mg instead of 3mgs. I think I will need 3mgs, but to him what do I know. Anyway, I should start balancing out some in a week or so he said. I wonder if he needs a pdoc himself.

I also think I will need to change tdocs because all mine does is sits there and listens to me talk and offers no suggestions or encouragement or anything. I need support. God, I can't believe all that is happening but I guess it could be worse.

Tina~

 
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Registered: 10-23-2004
Wed, 02-09-2005 - 11:22pm

Tina,


I can only imagine how you feel.