I'm safe

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Registered: 02-06-2004
I'm safe
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Fri, 02-11-2005 - 10:18am

Thanks to everyone for everything last night and always. For updates see my visions and voices post and anyone here post.

I'm at school now and although I don't think I'm going to my tutorials at least i am safer here. I don't have any blades or pills...unfortunately that means not even today's. My pillbox wasn't filled for today...for some reason i did it friday last week in stead of sunday so i didn't get fri-sun filled for this week. and for one i wasn't thinking about doing that last night or this morning and for two i definately shouldn't have done it last night. I wouldn't even take a sleeping pill at 3am to try and sleep because i was just so afraid that i couldn't even trust myself.

amanda

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Registered: 07-24-2003
In reply to: schitz
Fri, 02-11-2005 - 12:13pm

Amanda:

I'm glad you are safe this morning. I know I said it last night, but I think you should consider bringing your family up to date on your BP. It is really difficult, but they could help you A LOT if they knew what was going on and learned about it.

You are a very intelligent and strong person - especially to be able to do this alone for so long. Getting help won't make you weak - it is more of a strength to know when to ask for help.

Stay safe!!
Tracey

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Registered: 11-19-2004
In reply to: schitz
Fri, 02-11-2005 - 7:33pm

hi amanda,


i'm thinking of you and sending you GIGANTIC HUGS!!!


(((((((((((((((((((((((((((AMANDA)))))))))))))))))))))))


love you girl!


beth

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Registered: 09-01-2004
In reply to: schitz
Fri, 02-11-2005 - 7:44pm

(((((Amanda))))),


Glad to hear you are safe and I want you to continue to be so!