a growth experience? - poss? trigs
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a growth experience? - poss? trigs
| Fri, 02-11-2005 - 1:22pm |
today i met w/ tdoc and between the rage and depression it was a very interesting hour. found out, unfortunately, pdoc is out of his office today, so i will basically have to white knuckle it through the weekend and then see him on monday. tdoc told me not to hesitate calling her, the crisis line, or checking myself in if it gets that bad.
anyway, by the end of the session, after all the si discussion, i asked her if she could hold something for me.



Traci,
You definitely should be proud of yourself--you took a step not only to avoid any possible risk of hurting yourself, but allowed yourself to be parted from what I'm sure is a treasured memento!
Hang onto those thoughts over the weekend and, PLEASE don't hesitate to call your tdoc or the crisis line, if things get too rough.
Hugs,
it was definitely hard to part with. i had my hand on it in my pocket pretty much the whole hour. after we discussed at length the si and she questioned me about firearms in the house (a favorite past-time of mine i think i've mentioned before) i got to thinking about the knife. knowing where i've been these past few days between the depression and the rage, i took a leap of faith. because one day, hopefully, i'll be stable enough to get it back. my dad always carried it with him, even when i was a kid. it's like a piece of him i can keep with me at all times. but for right now, i think it's safer w/ tdoc then w/ me.
of course, i came home and discovered 2 more blades that i forgot i had. i've put them in a big envelope and am going to drop them in my tdoc's mail slot on her office door tomorrow. right now, that's the easiest way for me to know i'll be safe.
anyway, thanks for the support and encouragement. it means a lot to me.
hugs
traci
((((((amanda)))))) yes, we did, and to be honest, your decision to give your blade to christine helped me to make my decision. so, thank you! i hope you are feeling better.
hugs,
traci