Why does everything have to be so hard??

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Why does everything have to be so hard??
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Mon, 02-14-2005 - 12:10pm

I have anxiety through the roof and the panic attacks are still there. My mom is doing better but not out of the woods yet. She is off the ventilator and on a BiPap machine. Still having a hard time breathing. I can't help but feel afraid of losing her. It just keeps going through my mind. The doctor said this will not be the last time my mom will be in this situation with her emphysema and one day it may be the end. How can I cope knowing this will happen at anytime and I won't know when and when it does happen i will be devestated to say the least. I am tired of my anxiety being through the roof and feeling scared all the time. I want to feel better and relax and enjoy the good news about my moms progression but i can't seem to get rid of the fear. My bf has been supportive and trying to tell me it will be all right and that when I am with him I don't need to feel anxious. He tries so hard but I don't think he realizes if I could just stop the anxiety I would In a heartbeat. How do I make him understand? I do feel better when I am with him, but I can't be with him always. We don't live together. I wish we did. One day I know we will. I am a basket caase right now and just needed to get this out. Any suggestions on how to relax and feel less anxious will be appreciated. I need support in a bad way. Thanks in advance to all you great people. I hate being bipolar because it makes it worse to deal with stress.

Tina~

 
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Registered: 12-20-2004
Mon, 02-14-2005 - 3:16pm

Tina,

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I don't know how to get rid of this kinda of fear. When my father had lung cancer he was so much at peace with it it just kind of penitrate everyone around him. It even got through my bp.

I know when I go through a lot of anxiety I don't eat right and that makes things worse. Exercise is also the last thing I want to do but, believe it or not that helps. I know there are some over the counter suppliments that help but, I had my eyes dialated at the eye doctors and can't read the small print in the book. I promise to post them later.

How do you tell your bf that your anxiety can't just be turned off. I have no clue. My husband has learned it over the past 10 years but, that's only because of him experiencing it first hand. I know that's the hard way to do it. I wish we had majic wands issued to us when we get dx'd to wave over our loved ones to give them knowledge. I've never had the words to be able to explain how it feels, really, to be bipolar and all the great feelings that goes with it. Hopefully some one wiser than me will be along with more of an answer soon.

Love,

Jamie

Love,