Checking in with little news tidbits

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Registered: 12-14-2004
Checking in with little news tidbits
Thu, 02-17-2005 - 12:06am

Hello everyone.

Good to see you are all keeping yourself healthy and well and it's good to know Keli is getting the treatment she needs.

Saw the pdoc today and brought my mom along for the ride. My mom doesn't understand exactly what's going on with me and since I barely understand the whole BP thing myself. It's been extremely hard to explain to my mom just what this is all about and since I barely explain it myself. (I'm still learning about this myself and she doesn't understand the information I tell her when I do know what I'm talking about.) The good news is she sort of understands now and I ended up learning a few new things about myself, my past and how it relates to what's going on.

We also discussed my little tiredness and sedation problem with my medications. I mean, it's one thing to be tired when you take medicine, but I haven't been able to stay awake in the day for more than a few hours at a time. I just can't wake up in the morning and when I can make it to school, I can't stay awake. I mean, it's common for kids to fall asleep in class, but when teachers start getting mad for something that wasn't caused by a drinking binge, it's time to get help. I have missed a Hell of a lot of school in the past 2 and a half weeks to the point that during this visit I asked my pdoc for a note that will allow me to seek assistance with getting caught up and give me a few extentions on a few tests and assignments I haven't been able to complete. Further into the discussion, we ultimatly decided to try lowering my doses and completely illiminaing my anti-depressant. He said I was showing signs of mix symptoms - I'm in a depressed mood because of the tiredness but at the same time I'm cycling into a manic state where my thoughts are constantly racing - and the Paxel isn't helping. So I guess that's good news out of all of this.

Despite the rather good turn out of my visit to the pdoc, I did come to a realization of a potential trigger - I keep seeing my ex-boyfriend in the mall where I work with his girlfriend who he met very soon after he dumped me. I just hope I can figure a way to at least keep my head on if I have to see him this often now.

Oh, and before I sign off for the night: I'm not sure what channel it's on in the States, but I would highly recomend you all check out this season of Degrassi: The Next Generation. Degrassi, for those of you who don't know, is a highly popular Canadian family drama that has a good following in the States. (Director Kevin Smith just made a guest appearence at his request because he loved the orginal series growing up.) Anyway, during this season at some point, the introduced one of the students as being bipolar. Now, I haven't been paying attention every week because of work and school, so I'll be sure to be taping the reruns to see when exactly this occurs, but I'll let you know if you don't see it.