Spoke to me for FIRST TIME since.......
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| Thu, 09-09-2010 - 4:38pm |
Yes it was regarding work, but it was strange to speak to him for the first time since 6/18, we've only emailed to communicate and that has been rare, he has gone to others to relay infor or to get info from me rather then asking himself, he has refused my offer to help him (once) on a customer of ours and was cruel about it, he has walked past me and has mumbled "pissing me off" and yes, it was towards me ........but today........ he came to me....... and like I said, it was just strange to have him stand so close to me at my desk, he didn't want to make eye contact with me, he looked elsewhere as I looked up asking him a question........he did it again when asking him a different question when he requsted something and I was like...you mean DD?? he couldn't look me in the eye but was very sweet and polite. Yesterday he said "hello" to me.......maybe he doesn't hate me afterall.
He is such an unhappy person, it's actually quite sad (I'm not saying that becuause of me but becuase he is an unhappy person in life).
*sigh* sorry.........had no one else to "talk to" so here I am letting out my feelings and thoughts.

Uh Oh ...
"and like I said, it was just strange to have him stand so close to me at my desk, he didn't want to make eye contact with me, he looked elsewhere as I looked up asking him a question........he did it again when asking him a different question when he requsted something and I was like...you mean DD?? he couldn't look me in the eye but was very sweet and polite. Yesterday he said "hello" to me.......maybe he doesn't hate me afterall."
I have some alarm bells going off Crazy Girl. Why oh why does it matter whether or not he hates you? How are you making meaning out of his actions? Why are you considering his actions "sweet" a term I would see as endearing. Polite - sure, sweet - Nope.
Remember, keep focused on you and only you. It seems like he is getting you stirred up and thinking about him again by just treating you with even a little wee bit of professional curtosy.
TU.
LC/NC since April 14, 2010
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou
I agree with all you are saying which is maybe why I am posting it, I think I need some of that tough love, honest.
I'm not saying I'm slipping or wanting it back AT ALL, just saying I've not been the strongest person through out this painful, awful, gut-wrenching experience and maybe just need someone to help keep me on track is all.
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Honey, IMO, he has finally gotten over himself. IOW, he has tired of the facade he's been projecting. Regardless, TU is right about being careful and staying on track. There's nothing wrong with being polite...it probably felt like a fever blister finally popped. ;-) But boundaries are boundaries. It's actually a good thing he didn't make eye contact and I suggest you do the same if you have to talk to him. Always look at his forehead or down at some papers you have in your hands. I know this sounds silly, but eye contact can be
~Iddy~
Thank you Iddy, I agree totally with what you are saying, all of it. I know I'm not over him or the A yet, I have open wounds that haven't healed all the way yet and sometimes it does make it easier for me when he is cold and cruel, lol yet when he was that way I got mad and asked WHY what is his deal?!? Lol, I know, insane I tell ya.
Today he had to come to me again, I happened to be on the phone with a customer and he laid a paper down on my desk and I didn't even look up at him, I could have but I didn't, he just asked me to please take care of and I did, after that I had to ask him