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Fri, 09-17-2010 - 12:21pm

I've had such a crappy day.

I'm a civilian contractor for the military - we work on year to year contracts and today they pulled us in and told us that in 6 weeks our funding will be exhausted and so we are being let go.

I'm so angry. Our contract is not supposed to expire until March. I've worked here for almost 5 years.

How the heck will I make the same $$ in the local economy when what I'm trained to do is specific to the military?

I've been working on sending out resumes to everyone I can think of but I'm overwhelmed now - and wishing I had someone to make me feel better - because CAN'T A GIRL CATCH A FREAKING BREAK ALREADY???

I just am struggling to breathe.

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Registered: 04-15-2010
In reply to: mynameislolly
Fri, 09-17-2010 - 12:57pm

Lolly,

HUGE (((HUG))) ...

I am so so sorry to hear this terrible news )-:

Please know, that WE care how you are, and while we can't
make it go away, we can help you to take care of you.

With Love,

TU.

LC/NC since April 14, 2010

"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou

LC/NC since April 14, 2010

"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou
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In reply to: mynameislolly
Fri, 09-17-2010 - 1:05pm

I'm so sorry, Lolly. All I can offer you is a ((hug)) and tell you to keep the faith, but right now you probably think this is pretty lame. The thing is, we can't give up even when we're exhausted by it all.



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This is where I insert your own words written just a day or two ago: "I'm a pretty positive person, tho I've given myself permission to sit and have an occasional breakdown/pityparty.

   ~Iddy~ 


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Registered: 08-10-2010
In reply to: mynameislolly
Fri, 09-17-2010 - 2:25pm

Lolly, I am so sorry you are going through this on top of ending the A + ending a M.



You are so strong Lolly.



Garfy


NC since 13 September 2010 and trying to feel great...


Fate d

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Registered: 06-25-2007
In reply to: mynameislolly
Fri, 09-17-2010 - 2:45pm

Hi Lolly ...I remembered your post the other day about a new part-time job, ending your M and your A, supporting your little ones and yourself without wanting a helping hand from anyone! ...I thought at the time ...yikes...what an amazingly strong woman!



I often think that if we could have a glimpse into the future to see the challenges life has poised to throw at us, we would just NEVER get out of bed!

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Registered: 06-17-2010
In reply to: mynameislolly
Fri, 09-17-2010 - 3:20pm

Lolly -

I know it's hard right now and you're feeling completely overwhelmed, but remember that life is about the journey. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. There is a reason that your job will be changing sooner than later. Just have faith that it will all work out the way it's supposed to.

Bodhi

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Registered: 08-25-2010
In reply to: mynameislolly
Fri, 09-17-2010 - 8:46pm

Thanks guys,

I left work and climbed into bed for a couple hours and just bawled - and then spent a few hours with a headhunter company and a few zillion more applications and cried a little more, finished my final paper for this session of class and then went and hung out at my sister's house for dinner. I feel like I have a hangover and I didn't even have a drink....

I know that in the long run there has to be some reason for this, and I know God loves me - so somehow it will all work out - my part time job has offered me full time in the meantime, but even at full-time it's like a 1/3 of what I make at my current job. I have no idea what it is that the higher powers have in store for me, but I am reminded of my grandmother telling me once when my youngest daughter passed away - that God has great faith in my abilities, otherwise he wouldn't entrust me with so much. Sometimes I wish he didn't trust me so much...

I feel numb tonight. H called trying to be supportive but I'll be honest, it made things worse because he's been such a jagoff lately - I'll give him the benefit of the doubt - but I've joked with myself about going LC with him - seems like I just feel angry and bitter whenever I have to deal with him. I suppose it just is the way it is.

The unfortunate part of this all is that there just isn't similar civilian work - so I am probably looking at relocating unless by some miracle something opens here - a lot can change in 30 days, let alone 6 weeks, so I'll just keep my nose to the grindstone and pray a new opportunity rises. In the meantime, I do appreciate all your love and support - it was nice to come on tonight and know that you all had my back (newbies and vets alike). I had a weak moment where more than anything I just wanted to hear xAP's voice - (it's oddly soothing to me) but instead I got hugged by a bunch of nieces and nephews and played a couple of rounds of uno. Not quite the same, but it worked.

I feel very alone.

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Registered: 02-25-2010
In reply to: mynameislolly
Sat, 09-18-2010 - 12:30am

Hi Lolly



You are certainly having a tough run. You are not alone, we are here for support and wise (sometimes - well mine anyway) words as and when.



They say things happen in 3's

New Choices, New Chapter,


New Challenges,

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Registered: 04-11-2010
In reply to: mynameislolly
Sat, 09-18-2010 - 5:00am

Hi Lolly



Just adding my support and hugs here!! I agree with NC that bad things come in three so you can now officially start to look forward to some great stuff coming along.



In the meantime there is chocolate and EAS :)



Iggy xxx



You are what you consistently do