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| Sun, 02-27-2005 - 7:25pm |
I'm so sorry I'm not replying. I'm depressed and not finding much inspiration to write right now. I'm also mad at myself for being depressed. At the second church service I go to I realized what the heck do I have to be depressed about? The place I go for that service helps street kids, pregnant teens etc etc etc...so what the heck do I have to complain about?
Hugs to all
Amanda


i know what you mean about not haveing the inspiration to write. i have felt like that alot lately. i also know what you mean about feeling guilty for being depressed. in all honesty my life is probably darn near perfact compared to alot of people. the thing i have to remind my self is that unfortunately, i don't need a reason to be depressed other than my brain is chemically imbalanced. this is an illness. you don't hear heart patients feeling guilty for not haveing "a reason" to have a heart problem. same thing. this lovely illness is just that, an illness. there is a physical reason for it. so there you go. you have a reason. your brain chemicals don't work right. don't be too hard on yourself. ok? god bless and prayers.
Becky
Thank you so much, Becky, that was what I needed to hear right now. It doesn't make me un-depressed (?) but I can't believe I would forget something so essential as to the fact that I don't need a reason...in fact most of the time I don't have a reason. My moods in either direction aren't linked to what's going on in my life. Yes I have moods like everyone else and reactions to things...but my cycles have nothing to do with that.
I especially like the part about people not feeling guilty for not having a reason for a heart problem.
Thank you thank you thank you.
Unfortunately I'm crying right now just the same (lol) I can't seem to stop that right now. Even in public. Grr. I feel so weak. Again, that is contrary to what is the truth and that it's not me being weak, it's the way I am, the way my brain is.
I surprise myself that I perpetuate some of the myths about MI myself. I am shocked and appalled at myself! :O :) Here we want to end the stigma of MI and we can't even get around them ourselves sometimes.
Thanks again
Amanda
i'm so glad i could help. i do understand though that knowing something in your head, often has very little to do with how you feel. so hang in there.things will get better i promise. take care and god bless.
Becky