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Sun, 02-27-2005 - 7:25pm

I'm so sorry I'm not replying. I'm depressed and not finding much inspiration to write right now. I'm also mad at myself for being depressed. At the second church service I go to I realized what the heck do I have to be depressed about? The place I go for that service helps street kids, pregnant teens etc etc etc...so what the heck do I have to complain about?

Hugs to all

Amanda

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Sun, 02-27-2005 - 9:29pm

i know what you mean about not haveing the inspiration to write. i have felt like that alot lately. i also know what you mean about feeling guilty for being depressed. in all honesty my life is probably darn near perfact compared to alot of people. the thing i have to remind my self is that unfortunately, i don't need a reason to be depressed other than my brain is chemically imbalanced. this is an illness. you don't hear heart patients feeling guilty for not haveing "a reason" to have a heart problem. same thing. this lovely illness is just that, an illness. there is a physical reason for it. so there you go. you have a reason. your brain chemicals don't work right. don't be too hard on yourself. ok? god bless and prayers.

Becky

 


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Mon, 02-28-2005 - 12:03am

Thank you so much, Becky, that was what I needed to hear right now. It doesn't make me un-depressed (?) but I can't believe I would forget something so essential as to the fact that I don't need a reason...in fact most of the time I don't have a reason. My moods in either direction aren't linked to what's going on in my life. Yes I have moods like everyone else and reactions to things...but my cycles have nothing to do with that.

I especially like the part about people not feeling guilty for not having a reason for a heart problem.

Thank you thank you thank you.

Unfortunately I'm crying right now just the same (lol) I can't seem to stop that right now. Even in public. Grr. I feel so weak. Again, that is contrary to what is the truth and that it's not me being weak, it's the way I am, the way my brain is.

I surprise myself that I perpetuate some of the myths about MI myself. I am shocked and appalled at myself! :O :) Here we want to end the stigma of MI and we can't even get around them ourselves sometimes.

Thanks again

Amanda

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Mon, 02-28-2005 - 9:36am

i'm so glad i could help. i do understand though that knowing something in your head, often has very little to do with how you feel. so hang in there.things will get better i promise. take care and god bless.

Becky

 


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