Rage Monster has once again appeared!

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Registered: 04-02-2003
Rage Monster has once again appeared!
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Thu, 03-03-2005 - 4:15pm

It just seems to build up in me and I blow up. I'm talking about rage. I haven't had a fit of rage for sometime now. Today, I am so pi**ed I can't see straight. Why, everything. I'm fed up.

I just want to go somewhere and scream and beat a wall until my throat is sore and my hand is bloody. I may do that if it doesn't pass soon. I've been like this all day long. It isn't time for my period so I know it isn't PMS.

I don't want anyone to talk to me and by god everyone and their brother keeps stopping by my desk. I have my headphones on and every freaking time some idiot stops by I take them off and it pulls my hair. So needless to say I'm ignoring EVERYONE as best I can.

The bad thing about it....they know I'm sick, I'm not mad at them...yet, why can't people STOP asking me what is wrong. I just want to say, "You, can't you see I'm f*&^%$g working! I suppose since we're having troubles in our office people think they can just socialize. I have friends here, we take lunch and break, but I don't visit them at their desks.

Okay...I could go on for hours. I know I'm not suppose to, but a stiff drink would really help loosen up my shoulders, but I won't have one.

Off my soap box for now.

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Fri, 03-04-2005 - 9:07pm

Carla,


I really do know how you feel.