The pdoc started me on Depakote..trigger

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Registered: 01-05-2004
The pdoc started me on Depakote..trigger
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Fri, 03-04-2005 - 1:10pm

I'm not sure what to think about it. I feel like I've failed as a patient....the meds just don't seem to work well enough....He suggested that I was down right now because I felt guilty for all the $$ I blew when I was hypomanic/manic...that maybe I was having reactive depression. He also pointed out that I needed a med change every 2 months. He admitted that he wasn't sure what to do with me...the only thing left was Lithium and Depakote. So he picked Depakote and I start it tonight.

Meanwhile I am going down some more...and I'm cutting twice a day. I just hate myself so much and feel defective and like I said a failure as a patient - I can't seem to stop bothering the docs....I'm really considering that the meds are doing nothing. That I'm not worth their time....

Now I'm on
Wellbutrin XL 450
Cymbalta 60
Seroquel 225
Abilify 15
Inderal (for high blood pressure) 40 x 2
Depakote EC 500 x 2

Sorry to be so down again....hugs to you beautiful ladies.

Rowan

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Registered: 12-20-2004
Fri, 03-04-2005 - 4:20pm

Rowen,


First, You CAN'T FAIL as a patient!

Love,

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Fri, 03-04-2005 - 7:31pm

Oh Rowan.

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Registered: 01-05-2004
Sat, 03-05-2005 - 6:58pm

Thank you.

I had a good session with my tdoc, today. Got a lot out in the open. I hope my therapist doesn't think less of me, some of it was very personal.

But hugs to all of you.

Rowan

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Registered: 12-20-2004
Sat, 03-05-2005 - 8:30pm

Rowan,


Good for you having a good session with your tdoc.

Love,