Rough weekend

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Registered: 09-09-2010
Rough weekend
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Sat, 09-25-2010 - 2:53pm

I find it surprising that after all this time that AP and I have been together , I can still have times when I can be so jealous of his time away from me. This weekend is totally booked for me with my H's two kids with us for the weekend. My time is limited to talk , let alone see AP, and when I am busy and unavailable, AP enjoys his time by gathering with his friends, or going biking..he has a harley and goes on roads trips often with buddies..,or whatever has caught his fancy during those times. I find myself having moments, kind of like an out of body experience, where I can literally see him talking to a friend, female of course, and him really enjoying it. It still scares me that he will find that other someone who sparks his interest

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In reply to: tangledmess
Sat, 09-25-2010 - 5:00pm

Despite how you feel, you do tell him to go enjoy himself and you don't let on that it bothers you, so that's good, tangled.

Of course I sometimes feel like you do with my OM, but I think I felt more like that in earlier years. Yet the situation is the same. He could meet someone in many places. He's taken up a new hobby lately and I'm sure he comes in contact with a lot of women. I just have to tell myself that what will be will be I guess, and someday if he finds someone who can REALLY be a partner part of me would be happy for him and part of me heart-broken. I do understand what you're feeling!

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Registered: 09-09-2010
In reply to: tangledmess
Sat, 09-25-2010 - 5:06pm
Lexi, its funny how 90%of the time I am okay. But every once in a while I let myself go to that place in my mind and it sucks. We have been together a long time, so thats in my favor. He hasnt been interested in anyone else. He knows to be upfront with me if he ever does get attracted to someone else, and has had many opportunities,