Great night! Causes more insecurities...
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Great night! Causes more insecurities...
| Tue, 09-28-2010 - 7:55pm |
I was unsure last night was going to happen because many times when we plan to see each other it falls through. Well, all went as planned and it was a wonderful night...the way I feel with him is surreal at times. I have been struggling with the emotional aspect of our R at this point and the fact that he doesn't really want to encourage growth to a level we had in the past. Since our reconnection he has not been open about his feelings and of course has not mentioned the L word. I do know he cares about me but I feel so empty at times after our physical contact..it can be very painful. He knows how I feel about the issue and understands why. I had the courage to talk about my feelings in a more serious manner this morning...without getting into detail, he said he does love me and that he wasn't telling me that because it's what I want to hear. It was wonderful to hear him tell me that. But now here comes the flood of insecurities, fears, and over analyzing everything!...Now that I got him to open up he may get uncomfortable and pull away again. For the past two evenings we have been communicating via chat briefly and tonight he said goodnight and turned off chat as he pulled in his driveway. His responses to chat were very delayed also and felt generic. Maybe this is all my insecurity about the situation playing with my mind, idk. Damn, why can't I just relax about it!
Btw, his W texted him while we were together and he showed it to me (he told her he had to go out of town)...it said "Goodnight..love you"--OUCH :() ..that was difficult to see..
Btw, his W texted him while we were together and he showed it to me (he told her he had to go out of town)...it said "Goodnight..love you"--OUCH :() ..that was difficult to see..

Always,
honey, be better to yourself by not torturing yourself seeing texts from W. Should he offer to show you again, kindly say no thank you. It will be better for you in the long run.
Summer