how do they do it...

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-10-2010
how do they do it...
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Wed, 09-29-2010 - 8:14am

Hi...

I am a MW with a MM, we have been in an A for almost 3 years , and during that time he has broken up with me numerous times (from time to time he feels very guilty ... I understand that)

We work together and I see him daily and he went LC on me again, but he looks very happy and he doesn't seem to care at all. It feels as if he never loved me and if I was just "his sex buddy". How can he shut me out like that? Is it because of the guilt towards his wife? How can he pretend that he never loved me.. or could it be that it's no pretending, but that he truly NEVER loved me?

How can he go on with his life so easily...
Does he feel relieved ? Does he feel like a good husband and father now? I know this A needs to end, I do, but why am I in so much pain and why does he look so HAPPY

I know , a lot of questions and there might be no answers, but they are going through my head and I wish I had an answer, but I don't.

I asked him today if he hates me ? he said no he doesn't. And he was just grinning

I feel like a fool :-( It feels as if I never meant anything to him.

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Registered: 03-30-2010
Wed, 09-29-2010 - 12:56pm

Hugs to you Itstime2010. I know you can really use one. I wish I had answers for you but all I can say is to keep your head up. Don't give him the satisfaction of seeing you hurt. I also wanted to ask you some questions:



Are you willing to keep going through the Hot & Cold with him? The pulling back and no contact when ever the guilt hits? I know its an awful feeling but such is the dynamics of these affairs. Don't ask him any more questions, it just entertains him. Try your hardest to keep moving forward as if your not phased by it. I know easier said then done but don't let him think he has the power of making you sad.



Wishing you all the best!

 


Much peace & Love,


Rayne


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