getting tired of the wondering
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getting tired of the wondering
| Wed, 09-29-2010 - 7:15pm |
I am where AP is as we have a LDR. I arrived this afternoon. We have not seen each other in 2 weeks and before that it was 3 1/2 months. I talked with him last night via IM (that is only way we communicate). I asked if he was going to be around today and he said yes. I told him I would arrive around 2 and he could come over after that. He signed off and said ok. Have not heard from him even though I immed and told him I had arrived and he can see I am on and I see he was able to post something on Facebook 15 minutes ago (he doesnt know I look,we are not friends on there) yet he hasnt contacted me. Big slap in the face. Now, as usual, my feelings are hurt because it tells me straight out he doesn't really care. I went invisible because of it and am really pissed off. I end up always feeling like my feelings do not matter. I thought for sure he was making more of an effort but obviously not. I wish so bad I could just stop thinking about him or caring at all. Just needed to vent. This is one of the reasons A's are so bad. We always seem to get hurt! I want to take my life back. Sick of it being centered around him (he has no idea about that) and being let down time and time again. I know what the answer is but so much easier said than done.

What you saw that he posted on Facebook - was it a status update or a comment on someone else's status update? OR was it one of those things that say "so and so LIKES something or other". Because I did one of those "like" thingys once, and Facebook started posting it willy nilly whenever it felt like it. I was on my way over to my OM's house and he saw on Facebook that I posted I "liked" something around the time I should have been there and I think he was upset thinking I was still messing around on the computer (he's a 35 min. drive away). Then I showed up 5 min. later, I had been nowhere near a computer!
If it wasn't that, I know exactly how you must feel sweetie. I'm sorry!! I hope you manage to find the strength to do what you think you should. I know, as you say, easier said than done. (((HUGS)))
You've got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you're not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice. ~Steven D. Woodhull
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Personally, I'd tell him you're sick of him treating you like this and let him know he can take a hike.
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