the bliss goes to a screeching halt!!!!!
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the bliss goes to a screeching halt!!!!!
| Thu, 09-30-2010 - 12:29am |
my emotions are all over the place.... AP/his W/kids & me/H/kids had dinner tonight. his W chatting over dinner, says.... omg, girl, monday (when she got back from out of town) she attacks him and they didnt get protection and they dont pull out in time. so now there is a slim possibility she is pregnant. slim chance, she just got off her period. but im no doctor so i dont know. i have an immediate change of attitude the laughing, talking, drinking dinner. i tried to be subtle about it, but it does bother me. AP text me twice to calm down. to not be mad. ignore both texts. we leave the restaurant. he text me again asking what i have to say about it. i told him i didnt want to talk about it right now on text. that i'd wait till we could talk in person or on the phone, which i assumed the next day, tomorrow. to my surprise he calls me 20 minutes later. he knew my H was going to work so i'd be home alone w/ kids. we talk for a lil while, he's pleading his case. i know i couldnt handle watching him cater to her if she is preg. watching him rub her belly and talk to the baby thru her belly. the affection towards her, or more so the baby, would hurt me. now we are in a well... i dont know what kind of place... in the relationship. he finally got close to home so he had to go, any longer and she would wonder what took him so long to get home, since we all left around the same time. he is suppose to call me in the morning/afternoon when he gets out the house.

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I agree, it really IS sounding complicated.
I have to agree with lexi: sounds like the sex life between them is still "good".
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". . . watching him rub her belly and talk to the baby thru her belly. the affection towards her, or more so the baby, would hurt me."
ok so you haven't given him the permission to have kids with his wife ?
yes AP's W has diarrhea of the mouth..... she talks about anything and everything, no holds barred, at get togethers/dinner she talks about their intimate moments, which are few and far between, she talks about her kids constipation problems, everything! AP called to plead his case cause he thought i was gonna leave. not because of what happened because i had to find out from her, that he didnt tell me first. yes it does upset me at the fact there is a slim chance she is pregnant. he has said he does not want more kids. he and her agreed he'd get a vasectomy in a few months when the insurance kicks in at her new job. maybe she doesnt agree w/ the procedure and that was her attempt to do something. i didnt ask or expect him to call me 20 minutes after dinner. he was worried about me. he doesnt want me to leave the R we have. he is not expected to pacify my feelings, he willing does it on his own.
as far as their S/life, i know it isnt that bad, nothing special, pretty much (gettin graphic) two positions w/ light off only at night,..he told me before that its not horrible, he just doesnt want it. she says she always has to initiate it. they have S on average 1-2 times month, again she blabs everything all the time... before monday it been almost 3 weeks for them. me and AP have IC an average of 1-2 times a week.
now if it turns out she is preg, i know i wouldnt be able to accept it and i would gather all my strength and i would walk away from the R. i dont think she suspects anything... but i dont know.
now as an update, AP called me 1st thing this morning, we talked a little more and he asked if i would still see him. i said yes. he knows if she is preg that we are over. he asked to go for lunch at our sushi spot but by the time he got done w/ his work schedule it was getting late close to 130, too late for me to go, so i grabbed a quick something in the company kitchen & went on w/ my day. we talked two more times since lunch and he asked about trying for lunch tomorrow. so i guess all i can do is see how things go. i dont know how i feel about this whole thing but i do still care for him....