Keli i don't know what to do! i can't get my mind off "S" im totally obsessing. why did he dump me? why won't he contact me? these thoughts r so inappropriate being that im married. how can he just forget me after all those emails? stupidly i feel so unloved when im loved by the most wonderful DH on earth. ive started taking it out on him because one A$$H*** wont give me the time of day. i don't know why i need validation from this man. hes a terrible person but for him to just forget me.....its driving me crazy. i keep running back and forth to my email ive checked about 75 times or more during the day just to see if i got a message from him. how can i break this cycle? ive tried meditation, sedatives, i dont know what else to do. ive even thoght about going to some bar and picking up just about anybody just to see if im still disireable. i am so sick of talking about this topic but it wont leave my mind!!!!! I HATE HIM AND I HATE MYSELF. i dont deserve to be here i want to die i dont know if i can make it till tommorrow to see my tdoc. ive been binging and shopping then i cancel the orders then i binge.....
i'm so sorry! i hope i didn't bother you! iwasn't thinking. please accept my apologies!
valerie
No honey!
Keli i don't know what to do! i can't get my mind off "S" im totally obsessing. why did he dump me? why won't he contact me? these thoughts r so inappropriate being that im married. how can he just forget me after all those emails? stupidly i feel so unloved when im loved by the most wonderful DH on earth. ive started taking it out on him because one A$$H*** wont give me the time of day. i don't know why i need validation from this man. hes a terrible person but for him to just forget me.....its driving me crazy. i keep running back and forth to my email ive checked about 75 times or more during the day just to see if i got a message from him. how can i break this cycle? ive tried meditation, sedatives, i dont know what else to do. ive even thoght about going to some bar and picking up just about anybody just to see if im still disireable. i am so sick of talking about this topic but it wont leave my mind!!!!! I HATE HIM AND I HATE MYSELF. i dont deserve to be here i want to die i dont know if i can make it till tommorrow to see my tdoc. ive been binging and shopping then i cancel the orders then i binge.....
valerie
Honey...can I relate or what?