depressed and anxious (grrrrr) trigs

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Registered: 09-15-2004
depressed and anxious (grrrrr) trigs
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Mon, 03-14-2005 - 8:51am
Darn it, I thought it had gone away! But it's back again. I feel almost like I want to end it all. Driving to work this morning I had this incredible urge to run into a tree at high speed. Here are my most pressing problems. (1-I can't keep anything straight in my mind so I am so disorganized I am messing up all over the place. My mind is a mess and the only time I am remotely happy is when I am immersed in my fantasy world.
(2)My DH just doesn't understand and I am reluctant to discuss anything with him because he just stares at me in bafflement. My mom gets angry if I mention it to her and my sibs don't believe anything is wrong.
(3)I feel so drained I don't want to do anything except lie and fantasize. I recognize this is the wrong way to deal with things and tried to change it. Hence my depression. I am also suffering from severe insomnia so I practially fall asleep at work. Being at work right now is agony because I simply have lost all concentration and feel miserable. I need to call pdoc but the woman that answers the phones is a complete dragon and very nasty. Not sure what to do.
(4) I am now doubting my competence to have children. They don't need a nutso mother.
OK-I am done griping and being negative. I was so hopeful this wouldn't come back.
Thanks for listening!
Jodie

Jodie

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 03-14-2005 - 9:10am

{{{{{Jodie}}}}}


Sadly I know exactly how you feel, my dh looks at me that way, my mom is having a guilt complex over this and I'm afraid that I will pass this on to my children or even great grandchildren.


I'm just glad we have eachother here at the board. I try to simply tell myself what my last therapist told me

Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,

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Registered: 12-20-2004
Mon, 03-14-2005 - 3:07pm

Jodie,


Hi!

Love,