Hi keli. it's val. feeling a blue today as usual. i see my tdoc tommorrow and im gonna burn his ear off i have so much to say! well i did it, i emailed "S" i couldn't take not knowing what happened. fortunately i haven't heard back from him but i feel alot better getting things off my chest with him. im still hypersexual but it seems i can control it since i emailed "S". My OCD again!
thanks for listening and once again i emailed you on the weekend. it won't happen again. everybody needs some down time right?
Maybe the Depakote is working....I didn't fly into the sky manic....but it could some heavy stuff in therapy bringing me down...I don't know....guess we'll see.
i'm here and have hit bottom yet again and this time i crashed harder than ever.
but i'm holding on to the only thing that i have to look forward to and that is my upcoming vacation with my kids to tallahassee beginning on friday. don't know what'll happen when i get back though. in fact, i'm thinking about not coming back.
tdoc, of course advised against this. when i can post applying tos rules and regs i'll put up a post on what's happening in my so called life.
I"m here, It's been a rough day. It's payday so had a ton of errands to run and by the time I got to walmart this afternoon I was just ready to run people down w/ my cart, It was a mad house in there and I had gone from a happy start to my day to a very grumpy person by that time. I just treated myself to a bowl of ice cream and now I'm starting the tuesday evening anxiety chat.
I'm hanging in there but am finding that I can't wait to see my p/tdoc again. I have many things I'd like to talk about.
Does anyone here take xanax? I'm really nervous about flying and thought that might be something to calm me down but don't want to be totally zonked either, I have to be concious enough to change planes. Opinions please!>>!
Hi, I'm still here...a little reluctant to post since lately the "highs and lows" seem to have turned into all lows! :( I'm coming up on final exams and trying to get myself motivated to do the minimum, but having trouble. My pdoc changed around the doses of my meds, which made me get physically sick...but then I had my blood levels checked and based on that, my pdoc told me to go back basically to my previous doses...so it seems like there's not much that will help.
And my pdoc is going out of town for a few weeks, so hopefully I'll be able to hang in there. At my last visit, she did help me realize that I'm pretty functional right now even when really depressed (she said basically "you're doing fine, except you're miserable!" lol)...which I guess is odd...but even last night I was having bad thoughts so strong that they scared me...I wanted to take a Xanax but didn't want to risk being sleepy today when I need to study.
Hope you all are doing well...guess I need to summon up the energy to take a shower finally. Even though I probably seem functional to other people, take one look at my bedroom (clothes, papers, etc in huge piles all over the floor, unwashed dishes, etc) or my dirty hair and the depression is pretty clear...better work on that...except I don't know that I have the motivation.
Thanks for listening, hope that I didn't trigger anyone,
Hey Rose (((hugs))). I totally understand how you feel I am also coming up on exams, but first I have to get through the assignments. Yikes. 4 essays, 2 weeks, and I only have 2 part days a week that I am even able to work on them...otherwise I'm at work and in class.
Keep your head up. Keep pushing forward. I know it's hard but you can do it. I have faith in you.
Hi, All. I'm alive and kicking. I've been extremely busy. Got a pay raise and all that goes with it. :) I went to the local university today and began my enrollment stuff. I've had an associates for 5 years but my dh has always worked a shift that kept me from school. They changed his shift and now I can go!!! I'll try to be around more. I miss all of you. Amanda
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Hi keli. it's val. feeling a blue today as usual. i see my tdoc tommorrow and im gonna burn his ear off i have so much to say! well i did it, i emailed "S" i couldn't take not knowing what happened. fortunately i haven't heard back from him but i feel alot better getting things off my chest with him. im still hypersexual but it seems i can control it since i emailed "S". My OCD again!
thanks for listening and once again i emailed you on the weekend. it won't happen again. everybody needs some down time right?
take care
big hugs and kisses
valerie
Hi Keli,
I'm here just running a little late.
Love,
Marci here!
Maybe the Depakote is working....I didn't fly into the sky manic....but it could some heavy stuff in therapy bringing me down...I don't know....guess we'll see.
Hugs,
Rowan
i'm here and have hit bottom yet again and this time i crashed harder than ever.
but i'm holding on to the only thing that i have to look forward to and that is my upcoming vacation with my kids to tallahassee beginning on friday. don't know what'll happen when i get back though. in fact, i'm thinking about not coming back.
tdoc, of course advised against this. when i can post applying tos rules and regs i'll put up a post on what's happening in my so called life.
sorry about the mini-vent.
traci
hi sweetie,
i'm still here.
I"m here, It's been a rough day. It's payday so had a ton of errands to run and by the time I got to walmart this afternoon I was just ready to run people down w/ my cart, It was a mad house in there and I had gone from a happy start to my day to a very grumpy person by that time. I just treated myself to a bowl of ice cream and now I'm starting the tuesday evening anxiety chat.
I'm hanging in there but am finding that I can't wait to see my p/tdoc again. I have many things I'd like to talk about.
Does anyone here take xanax? I'm really nervous about flying and thought that might be something to calm me down but don't want to be totally zonked either, I have to be concious enough to change planes. Opinions please!>>!
Hugs & Prayers,
Danielle
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Hi, I'm still here...a little reluctant to post since lately the "highs and lows" seem to have turned into all lows! :( I'm coming up on final exams and trying to get myself motivated to do the minimum, but having trouble. My pdoc changed around the doses of my meds, which made me get physically sick...but then I had my blood levels checked and based on that, my pdoc told me to go back basically to my previous doses...so it seems like there's not much that will help.
And my pdoc is going out of town for a few weeks, so hopefully I'll be able to hang in there. At my last visit, she did help me realize that I'm pretty functional right now even when really depressed (she said basically "you're doing fine, except you're miserable!" lol)...which I guess is odd...but even last night I was having bad thoughts so strong that they scared me...I wanted to take a Xanax but didn't want to risk being sleepy today when I need to study.
Hope you all are doing well...guess I need to summon up the energy to take a shower finally. Even though I probably seem functional to other people, take one look at my bedroom (clothes, papers, etc in huge piles all over the floor, unwashed dishes, etc) or my dirty hair and the depression is pretty clear...better work on that...except I don't know that I have the motivation.
Thanks for listening, hope that I didn't trigger anyone,
Rose
Hey Rose (((hugs))). I totally understand how you feel I am also coming up on exams, but first I have to get through the assignments. Yikes. 4 essays, 2 weeks, and I only have 2 part days a week that I am even able to work on them...otherwise I'm at work and in class.
Keep your head up. Keep pushing forward. I know it's hard but you can do it. I have faith in you.
Hugs,
Amanda
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