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| Fri, 03-18-2005 - 6:12am |
Hi ladies,
Thanks for checking up on me. Right after I posted my message I started getting severe chest pains and nausea. I figured it was probably my first anxiety attack and wanted to drive myself to the hospital but my boss said it was against company policy. So they called 911 and they rushed me to the hospital. I was breathing so hard I my whole body started drawing up. I couldn't tell them the real reason I was having an attack (they were on psych diversion) but I did try to tell them it WAS an attack. In any case, they couldn't seem to get my heart to slow down the whole 8 hours I was there. So now I am on heart medication which I refuse to take. I know it is my depression and stressers causing it to stay rather high. Yesterday I was so drugged I could hardly walk so I didn't come to work-I don't have access to the internet except at work so I couldn't post any messages yesterday.
But I have a huge arsenal of meds on my radio downstairs which is rather scary to look at. I still wanted to take them all. I am trying to work up the courage to call my pdoc. You guys don't know how hard it is for me to do this. It terrifies me. I KNOW she will put me inpatient if I tell her everything. My mom would be furious and my DH horrified. I still don't know what to do...I just need some courage.
Jodie
Thanks for checking up on me. Right after I posted my message I started getting severe chest pains and nausea. I figured it was probably my first anxiety attack and wanted to drive myself to the hospital but my boss said it was against company policy. So they called 911 and they rushed me to the hospital. I was breathing so hard I my whole body started drawing up. I couldn't tell them the real reason I was having an attack (they were on psych diversion) but I did try to tell them it WAS an attack. In any case, they couldn't seem to get my heart to slow down the whole 8 hours I was there. So now I am on heart medication which I refuse to take. I know it is my depression and stressers causing it to stay rather high. Yesterday I was so drugged I could hardly walk so I didn't come to work-I don't have access to the internet except at work so I couldn't post any messages yesterday.
But I have a huge arsenal of meds on my radio downstairs which is rather scary to look at. I still wanted to take them all. I am trying to work up the courage to call my pdoc. You guys don't know how hard it is for me to do this. It terrifies me. I KNOW she will put me inpatient if I tell her everything. My mom would be furious and my DH horrified. I still don't know what to do...I just need some courage.
Jodie

Oh {{{{Jodie}}}}
I'm so sorry you had such a horrible attack, I hate panic attacks, they are just the worst : (
Just wanted to drop you a note to let you know that you're not alone and I'm sending your strength vibes so that you can call your pdoc.
All my prayers
Hugs & Prayers,
Danielle
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Jodie, honey...
Right now, you need to put everyone else out of your mind and be selfish!
Sorry to hear about your attack. I too was ready to call the hospital a few weeks ago. I ended up just going to bed and calling the pdoc in the morning. It was the best decision I have ever made. I also was evaluated by the local hospital for some of thier programs. They have a free assessment process and I felt better after going and talking with someone unbiased about my problems. Since you obviously need some help, please call your pdoc or call the hospital. Your husband would be more upset without you here then with a hospital stay. JMHO.
Hugs.