Stability was fun while it lasted...TRIG

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Stability was fun while it lasted...TRIG
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Mon, 03-21-2005 - 10:54am

You guys....I'm beginning to think I'm crazy for real...My brain is so broken and the pdocs can't figure out a way to fix it...I try so hard to stay stable, and then after the magical two or three weeks, it hits me dead on...the majorly rapid cycling...the bad thoughts of self harm...the wanting to run away somewhere to a place that I'm not sick...but that place doesn't exist.

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Mon, 03-21-2005 - 3:43pm

(((((Keli))))) No you aren't crazy. I know exactly what you are going through right now. I wish I could help, but I'm sending you lots and lots of cyber hugs!!!!! (((((KELI))))) I'm cycling now too....I HATE IT.

I'm about ready to go postal on a co-worker as I write. OMG.......I hate this freakin' disease.

((((((KELI))))))
Carla

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Registered: 01-05-2004
Mon, 03-21-2005 - 4:28pm

Keli & Carla:

You have my best and most positive thoughts, and lotsa hugs too.

You aren't crazy and no one will be going postal....My T said to me that I'm definitely not crazy, and I have had my share of moments like you two.

Our lives are just a little more "more" than others....I wish it could all be so much calmer...but...well here we are.

Hugs to you ladies.

Rowan

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Mon, 03-21-2005 - 4:34pm

(((((((((((keli)))))))))) you know we all know exactly what you are going thru. i can also feel a big downer coming on after being so manic for so long. my prayers and good vibes of peace and healing coming your way.

i am here as always if you need me!

big hugs and kisses

valerie

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 03-21-2005 - 7:28pm
((((Hugs)))). I hope they can get your meds right so that help stop the cycling and pain you are in.
 
 
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Mon, 03-21-2005 - 11:29pm

Keli, I'm sorry...just wanted to let you know you'll be in my thoughts. And I will be hoping with you that this med change will help you reach that stability again...I can definitely relate to how you're feeling, if that makes you feel any better, and I hope I'm not crazy either (although sometimes I have my doubts too!).

Hugs,

Rose

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Tue, 03-22-2005 - 7:19pm

Keli,


I just wanted to send some positive thoughts your way.

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Wed, 03-23-2005 - 11:15am

Keli,


Hang in there Sweetie--you're definitely not crazy--it's just the wild ups and downs of this disorder that can make us feel that way!


I wish I could wave that magic wand (I'm still trying to find the little sucker), but it DOES get better.