Been MIA. Lots of changes. Need help.
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| Sun, 03-27-2005 - 1:46am |
Hi, everyone. I'm sorry I've been MIA for so long. There have been sooo many changes lately. I've quit my job and now I stay at home. Aryc, my ds, is 19 months old. I'm 15 weeks pregnant with my next little one (probably a girl). I'm due Sep 18. My dh and I have been getting better, but he'll probably be deployed when Zoe (our dd, on the way) is born. (My dh is Air Force.)
And I've had problems with the meds for my bp. With the pregnancy, my hormones and my bp are clashing big time and really causing problems for me, and I'm not responding well to any of the typical meds, such as Seroquel and Risperdal. My pharmacy doesn't carry Geodon, so that's not a possibility. Lithium is obviously out, being pregnant. My doc is getting ready to move to New York soon, so it's been tough getting an appointment for a follow-up. Anti-depressants tend to make me cycle too fast, so I try to stay away from them, otherwise I don't sleep for 3 days at a time. Plus, the new research says that anti-depressants can cause withdrawal symptoms for newborns and I don't want to set my dd up for problems. Any tips and advice from you guys? I'm willing to at least consider almost anything.
Otherwise, things are going okay. Working things out. I'm attending a healthy thinking class next month and an anger management class this month. It's actually helping me to control some of my cycling. The emotions are still there, but I'm better able to handle them now. Takes some of the stress out of cycling.
Hope all is well with everyone else, too! I'll be around, but I'm not able to post and stay up-to-date as often as I'd like. My ds keeps me quite busy. Otherwise, I'm too tired to do anything. So I try to fit it in.
Take care, everyone!
~Aislinn

Hi Aislinn,
I have wondered where you have been. Congratulations on the new baby. HOORAY!! I am sorry to hear that your DH might not be there for the birth of your baby. That always sucks. I can't help you with BP meds and pregnancy. I didn't take anything with either one of my children. I know that being pregnant and taking meds is tricky. There is so much that you can't take.
I am glad to hear that you are taking classes to help with your anger,and to help take some stress out of your cycling. I hope that both of those classes help you. Every little bit helps right?
Hi, Cyn!! It's great to hear from you again. Being gone, I've really missed all of you guys and the wonderful support you all have offered me! I'm glad things are going well for you. Where are you at now? Last I talked to you, you were going to Japan, right? Where are you headed now? (I apologize if I've got my facts mixed up. Things have really been in a fog lately. Like I said in that reply post to Keli...it's tough for me to differentiate between reality and what my mind makes up.)
The meds are important to me now. I'd love to get away with not needing any. But the cycling is slowing down and I've been more and more on the depressive side. Because of that (and probably many other things) my patience is really low and my temper is really high. I'm not good around my ds anymore, and I need to be! I'm trying a low dose of Risperdal, but I haven't had the best response to it. I've been on Seroquel, but I was almost comatose at just 25 mg. The Seroquel made me rage for no particular reason. I was seriously dangerous while I was on it, so I quit it quick. The Risperdal is starting to do the same thing, with the agression, but not quite as bad. When I started it, though, I was really, really depressive. I've been off of it for a few weeks. I'm in a little better place, so I'm trying it again. I've got an appointment on Apr 4 with my doc again to follow-up. I hope I can have good news to tell him. I think I've found another good doc once my pcm leaves.
I hope all is well with you! Take care!!
~Aislinn
Hi Aislinn,
What are you still doing awake? Isn't it really early there? We are in Germany,and are going to GA. Please do not wish Japan on me. LOL That is one of the two places I never want to go. The other one being Germany. LOL I figure since I already did my time in one I might be lucky to not have to do time in the other.
I hope that you find a med that you can take that doesn't harm the baby and helps you with your cycling,and anger. I am a angry person when I am manic. I don't get that happy, euphoric feeling some people do. I will look around on the internet for
Hey, again. Yeah, it's early...2:51am. But I'm manic because I took a nap earlier. Now I can't sleep. I tucked dh into bed and am upstairs watching some of MY movies and catching up on the board. Me time! YEAH! I never get me time anymore. Even when Alex (dh) watches Aryc (ds), I have to step in and separate them. Alex is too hard on Aryc...he forgets that Aryc is only 19 months old - not 19 YEARS old. So I have to constantly be there to remind him not to scream at Aryc, or not to put him in his room right away, etc. It's just more stress on me, but I have to do it. I've spoken to Alex about it repeatedly, but it doesn't seem to do any good. Next step will probably be somebody else intervening, like our counselor or somebody. It's gotten bad at times...bruises on Aryc's wrists after he slaps me because Alex steps in and grabs his wrists too hard, or something like that. It's hard for me to be around it, but I don't have a choice yet. So me time is very coveted. I've been completely anti-social lately because I've been so hungry for me time.
Sorry about that memory slip. How long do you think you guys will be in GA? Is this a good move? My dh and I have been thinking about trying to get to Japan. We really love the culture, and the base there looks awesome! (I've been doing a little research on possible bases.) I'm not sure if Alex will even be able to stay in. If he doesn't pass his fit test Apr 26, then he'll be kicked out (not on good terms, either)right before our dd is born. :((( But if he does pass it, then he tests for Staff May 26. He should make it this year. But his good supervisor just moved shops, so I hope this doesn't screw up his chances.
Anyway. Good luck in the move! ~Aislinn
Hi Aislinn,
I am sorry to hear that you are having a rough time with your
Thanks, Cyn! Actually, Alex and I are in our last Anger Management class tomorrow. This is the second time he's gone, my first time. It's being handled now, with the help of our marriage counselor. We've got some good people on our side, which is a blessing. Yep, he's been working out, and I'm fairly confident that he'll be able to pass his PT test.
I'm kinda tired...exhausting day, so I'm gonna get caught up and get some sleep. Good luck on your weight gain (wanna trade??) ;) and I hope your move goes well! Take care!
~Aislinn
Hi Aislinn,
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