If little by little...

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Registered: 03-30-2010
If little by little...
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Thu, 10-07-2010 - 3:57pm

Hello MAS,

Happy to be able to post again & adjusting to the new features. Hope you all are well.

Ok so here it is Thursday and I've been distancing myself from AP little by little. The energy for all this sometimes exhausts me and I don't know how much more I have in me to continue. I enjoy the way he makes me feel and the physical part of our relationship is explosive but other then that I won't ever have him for myself. We wont ever be with the other and I'm just prolonging the inevitable. As you all know being with AP is a constant battle between my mind and heart. My crave for him wins every time but I've been finding myself not missing him as much. I think this is a good thing. I don't want to miss him, I don't want to rent him space, I don't want to give him any part of me but while my mind is telling me NO my body is telling me H@LL YEAH! Why can't they both coinside?

So little by little I've been returning his calls less, not commuting with him as much & physically restraining myself from hugging, kissing & sleeping with him. I was trying to end this before Summers end but as you can see it didn't happen. I know theres an expiration on us and I feel in my heart its going to happen alot sooner then I expected.....when will that be...I don't know but I'm not trying to put a time table on it yet. Maybe I'll wake up one morning and this will all be just a dream...

Later my loves! Always take care of you...

 


Much peace & Love,


Rayne


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Registered: 04-05-2007
Thu, 10-07-2010 - 4:46pm

No, it's not a dream, unless you're all in MY dream LOL...

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Registered: 06-14-2010
Thu, 10-07-2010 - 5:03pm

I read your posting and had tears in my eyes.

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-09-2010
Thu, 10-07-2010 - 11:29pm

Hi Rayne,

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Registered: 05-03-2010
Thu, 10-07-2010 - 11:34pm

ITA with this.

anotherseyes

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Registered: 03-30-2010
Fri, 10-08-2010 - 4:26pm

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ArdBI_F1LKo

This is a song AP dedicated to me. What's a girl to think? This song will forever be with me...

Have a great weekend ladies & gents!

 


Much peace & Love,


Rayne


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