here's where i'm at.

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here's where i'm at.
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Fri, 04-08-2005 - 11:19pm
i came home from the hospital a couple of weeks ago after my hystorectomy. i am still a little sore, and weak. but aside from that, i can feel myself slipping over to depression again, and starting to obsess over things. money mostly. or lack there of. my dd is haveing some trouble in school and i know i am not spending enough time working with her on things. i swear i spend more time worrying about things more than i spend actually doing them. i worry about not being a good enough mom, but i don't spend near as much time doing anything about it. i worry about work, but i don't spend near as much time actually working... same thing with the house work, my friendships, everything. i just can't seem to get the energy and ambition to do the things i need to be doing. and then i worry because i'm not doing them. any way, i'm rambling. i'm going to go to bed now. night all. and god bless.
Becky

 


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Registered: 04-02-2003
Sat, 04-09-2005 - 2:36pm
(((((Becky))))) Honey you aren't alone. I'm going through the same thing. I hate it too. I wish I could give advice, I can only send cyber hugs and I'm sending you tons!!!!
((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) Be strong, as strong as you can. I hope you rest, because I've had several doctors tell me that our body heals itself better when we sleep, so get tons of rest.
HUGS!
Carla
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Registered: 10-03-2004
Sat, 04-09-2005 - 6:48pm

(((((Becky))))))

The first time I read your post I thought: that's me! It's so easy to spend so much time worrying and not really doing them. I have spent so much time obsessing over having obsessive thoughts!

I don't know if you've ever been told this and I just got out of intensive group therapy but I'll share one of the things we talked about in our group. Try making a list, even if one day the only thing you get done is actually writing the list. Sometimes once you write everything down on paper you're able to realize it's not as important as what you thought so you're able to forget about it. I know it's helped me. I actually did it this morning. I filled up an entire sheet of paper about stuff related to work. I was thinking about things that are not even going to be important until August! Doing this also helps me "take contol" of the situation since I know I hate to feel out of control. I hope I haven't over stepped any boundaries. (((( )))) again.
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